Everything happens with Allah’s will and permission

And there is not a thing, but with Us are the stores thereof. And We send it not down except in a known measure. (Quran 15:21)

Hello and i am back. I been waiting on a topic for my blog i can write about anything and everything but topic related to Islam never ceaase to amaze me. So leaving aside all my books and tv shows i decided to write yet another blog in relating to Islam. I been busy with school and bunch of books i been reading that i started feeling guilty for not giving enough time for Islamic knowledge. So here i am going to write about how Everything happens with Allah's will so not blame anything or anyone for it.

In the name of Allah, We praise Him, seek His help and ask for His forgiveness. Whoever Allah guides none can misguide, and whoever He allows to fall astray, none can guide them aright. We bear witness that there is none worthy of worship but Allah Alone, and we bear witness that Muhammad (saws) is His slave-servant and the seal of His Messengers.

Surely We have a free will from which we make our destiny and pathways in life. But without Allah's permission not even a leaf of a tree can fall on the ground. So, we must realize that Allah has His control over this world and no matter what we say or do we cannot change that. Allah knows whats best for us. Sometimes there may be situation we cannot bear to survive or wish there were options to choose from when meeting with a decision making. However, we cannot take even a step farther without Allah's will. Any individual, the rising of that individual and the falling of that individual. All this is Allah’s doing and is in His control.The Devil in contrast invites to the thinking that amass wealth, everything will happen. Everything happens through money. Quran says that everything is happening through Allah.

Moreover, no matter what we say or do, deep down we know we got to be strong because this is all Allah's doing. So through any situation you may face or you have taken yourself in to , the outcome is always in Allah's hand. No matter what we want in life and how we go on to achieve it at the end of day you have to put the trust on Allah that He is the controller. The things you want may not be the best thing for you and Allah knows best. The things you ask for may not come to you so easily because Allah did not permit for it to come just yet. Sometimes we are put in test and trials as well. Throughout all situations we just got to learn to have the faith that Allah is the controller and He will either help us to gain something or destroy something of our lives.
Not even does a grain of sand move on this earth, nor a drop of water falls from the heavens, nor does a leaf move or fall from the trees, nor can one even blink their own eyelids….without the precise Will and Permission of their Lord Creator, Most Exalted, Most Supreme!Thus the natural question which would arise is if everything happens, and indeed it does happen only with the Precise Will and Permission of Allah SubhanWatala then why does the Lord Most Merciful allow or permit evil to take place on this earth?

Allah says in the Holy Quran in Chapter 67 Surah Al Mulk verse 2:
He (Allah) created death and life that He may test you, to see which of you is the best in deeds.
Allah Says in the Holy Quran Chapter 21 Surah Anbiyaa verse 35:
Every soul shall have a taste of death: and We test you by evil and by good (only) by way of trial: to Us must ye return.

Now to make it short ....

Whoever chooses to submit his will to the Will of his Creator, and chooses to live his life in accordance with the guidance of his Creator, passes the test of life and is promised the Eternal Mercy, Grace, and Rewards of Allah Subhanah.And whoever amongst man uses his bestowed intelligence and power of reasoning to do everything else but does not recognize or denies his Supreme Creator, refuses to submit his will to the Will of His Creator, and of his own ‘free will’ chooses to live his life in accordance with any guidance other than that of His Supreme Creator, miserably fails the test of life and will have a severe accounting in the Presence of His All-Mighty and Majestic Lord on an Judgment Day.

Thus, Whenever we see something evil we should keep ourselves away from it. Whenever there is a choice from choosing good over bad, choose good. We should pray that Allah helps us achieve our dreams staying in the correct path. those who wish to do good to continue their good, and those who wish to do evil to continue their evil. Thus both good and evil can and only happen with the Permission and Will of the Lord, but He is Pleased with the doers of good, and He is Displeased with the doers of evil. So if you are on the good path inshaAllah good will happen with you.
Just remember praying to Allah wholeheartedly is a cure to anything and everything. When you are met with a dilemma just know that at the end of the day you have chosen your path and with Allah's permission you will meet the outcome. Khuda Hafiz.

When your faith is shaken, turn your eyes to Allah.

"When Allah tests you, it is never intended to destroy you. When He removes something in your possession, it is only in order to empty your hands for an even greater gift."
- Ibn Al-

Reading these lines over and over has brought me to discuss today's blog. Its very simple and gets right to the point. First of all i want to ask, Do you relly have faith in Allah? The complete trust when helpless ? The faith which will take you to your destination without worries? I know the answer in your head is affirmative. However, think it over.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
No ! its not it! We do not have complete faith in Allah. We do not believe in his power when it comes down to the real deal in life,we do not put our trust in Allah completely. We worry so much and stress out over our dreadful situation without leaving it to Allah to take care of. I myself find my belief system shaky when it comes down to a real stressfull situation. I do realize everything is on Allah's hand. We cannot control Allah's decisions but we can control our own actions. Its our action that brings us to our situation so why worry so much? Why tense and be stressed out when you can simply just have faith that Allah will not destroy you, Allah is there to help you.

However, sometimes these thoughts are not enough because we are so grounded by our problems. I believe if you really belive in Allah then this faith will come in your heart automatically. No need to think of anything but you will know right in your head that although there are danger ahead , Allah is there. We need to realize that life is short and time is running by. We have limited time in our hand to utilize it in good things. Its our prime time to show Allah that we do believe in Him. We do believe in His Messenger (SAW). We do keep faith and trust. And most of all we do need to be stronger to fight any situations and learn to leave everything to Allah.

We need to realize that although our posessions may have slipped out of our hand there may be a better grab which will fulfill our wishes. We just need to have faith that no matter how harsh the truth is , we can accept it. We can accept and move on to a greater deal in life. So, even if you have lost something in life and have been miserable, always remember that life goes on. Sooner or later you will accept what comes your way. So why not trust in Allah and accept whatever comes your way? Its easier said than done! But thats life, to complete this life one must give up to get.

So , think carefully do you really have full faith in Allah? If you dont then work on it. Allah loves his servants when they try hard to be on the right track. If any situation sadden you, dont get disheartened and have the faith that something better is coming. I myself need to make myself stronger and work on trusting Allah completely and be patient. Patience is the key to happiness and when there is faith all will fall right in there automatically. So be careful if your belief is shaken. Allah is there to make things right even if somethings have gone out of hand.Instead of getting upset of what you have lost, just wait for the better deal thats coming your way.When there is faith , everything else will give your sight a positive view and nothing will be upsetting. :) And Allah knows best. Khuda Hafiz.

Birth Month blog dedicated to my MOMMY!!!!!

Yay!!! Its my birth month. I want to dedicate this blog to my mommy and i will make her read this pretty soon. Every mother is the world's best guaranteed gift to their child. Alhamdulillah i have an awesome family and the world's most beautiful and wonderful mother. I love my mom very much yet i annoy her and do lots of things that is against her. And someday i wish i could make up for all the wrongs i have done to her and say sorry for all the times i have hurt her intentionally\unintentionally. Even if i get the lives of millions and say sorry to my mom it still wont be enough for all that she has done for me. woohoo so here it goes. Its going to be long and emotional so hold your breath.

A note to my mom:

The nine months hardship: I am sorry mom that i put you through so much unbearable pain. I am sorry for every time you had to throw up for me and every time you felt dizzy and couldn't eat. Sorry for the times i kicked you when i was in your tummy. Sorry for all the pain you had to go through.

Result: I am sorry for all the times i have woke up during midnight crying for milk or potty. I am sorry for the sleepless nights and i bet you had to suffer a lot because of me.

I am sure i have annoyed you in parties and i am sorry every-time i have ruined your make up or even clothes. Sometimes you would not eat on time to make sure to feed me on time. Thanks for all that and even countless thanks wont be enough to appreciate you. It will take me a whole lifetime to thank you for all that hardship you were put through because of me. I would never understand how you have felt i know you were happy yet i have annoyed you a lot.

I just want to thank you for giving birth to me.I want to thank you for giving a life to me which included so many other wonderful things. Thanks for all the clothes , shoes , hair accessories you got me and still get me. Thanks for spending time with me. I wish i was capable of giving you half of the happiness you have showered me with. I want to thank you for bringing me up and for teaching me all that you have taught me throughout my life. You have been a great inspiration and motivation to do right things always. You have always came to save me in troublesome situations. You were always there to give the perfect advice to my situations. You were the best math teacher during my childhood.

I know even til today when you are sick you pretend to be all fine and dandy so you could be a help to us. So you could give us food on time and take care of the house. I am sorry if i cant match up to your expectations and cant take care of you well enough when you are sick. When i used to fall sick you were the best support i had.You made sure to bring me food, give me head massage and just the worry in your face would give me peace while sick. You are the best mom any daughter could ask for.

You remember the days i would randomly tell you to sleep with me at night because i am scared of ghosts? Every time i did that i was actually sad about things i couldn't share but just the fact you were next to me helped all the sadness disappear. You have that magic,mom. I have that miraculous bonding with you that when you are around everything else feels positive. I feel safe and secure. Your love is so guaranteed , i dont have to worry about you leaving me or for you to prove your love for me. I know its there and it will never be gone. I just wish i could give you the same love you give me. Its a shame that i can never match up to that level even if i try all my life.

I could go on and on about you because you are just that amazing. I know by now you already got teary and few drops have fallen down your cheeks as well. How sweet! I am sure i am in the other room now because i dont want to be in the emotional scene. But i will be there to hug you in a bit ;)

I love you mom you are the world's most beautiful mother and thanks for bringing me to this world. I thank Allah for having you, Alhamdulillah. May Allah always keep you happy, safe and healthy.

PS: i am still jealous that your hair is more beautiful than mine. grrrr!! hehe..

So here it is for those who are reading. Go ahead and give your mom a tight hug and appreciate all that little to big things she has done for you all her life. Think before you annoy her because she has gone through so much because of you. She deserves to be treated like a queen. She is an angel in human form in your life. Keep her close to heart and dont take her love for granted. Your mom deserves all the love in the world and all the appreciation in the world just for being a mother. :)

Self-Respect

Many of us forget how important it is to have self respect. Now, you may be thinking everyone carries self respect duhh!! No! You are wrong! Somewhere down the road we are so insecure about ourselves that we do things which may risk our self esteem. I want to tell those who are reading about the importance of having self respect for yourself and that is one of the most important key to happiness. I have let myself down quiet few times and its all my fault that i haven't kept myself safe in different situations. To have respect for yourself, to care about your own self, to love yourself fully is very much needed in today's world. If you can learn to love yourself and really want to be selfish then trust me there won't be any problem in your life.

We love ourselves the most and we act selfish many times. But have you ever realized that we don't love ourselves the way we should? No, we haven't thought about that. One should always keep themselves in the highest level that way no one can dare to touch anybody's self esteem or ruin his ego. Many times we give up and do things which are against our own wishes. I want you to stop and think... why? Why do things that is against your will ? Why do things that you know may hurt you or be a damage to you in the future? Why not prevent yourself from trouble? And why not be wise?

Yes, the answer to the questions are already well known to us. We are either led astray by satan or we do things to make others happy even if that means you are unhappy. I say always do what your heart and mind feels is right. Think properly! Learn to think of the good and bad of everything and learn to save yourself from trouble. If you really love yourself you wont get yourself in a mess, you wont listen to satan and lastly everybody else around you will love you. First love to have respect and love for yourself then think of others. Don't put yourself in confusion and mess. You know who you are , what you want, how you will do it . Then why give yourself so much complications?

I am sure some of you are puzzled with my words. But hey think! I am sure you are one of those who have invited trouble in your life by going against your own will. I am sure you are the one who have made yourself lose your self respect at some point in your life. I am sure you are the one who dont love yourself properly like you should.

So i wil like to end this blog with few tips. Make sure you care about yourself. Go ahead and cut communication with those you do not like or those who put you down. Go ahead and stop listenin to satan and make your life here a hell and building a house in hell for the hereafter as well. Go ahead and take a step forward to a new YOU the you who know how to have respect and know how to respect others as well. The moment you stop and think that the things i am doing may harm my self-esteem , stop it then and there! Learn to not care sometimes. Learn to not give a crap about what the world thinks about you. Think of yourself first and do the things that will keep you in the safe field. I hope i made sense and those who can relate to this topic will soon realize the importance of loving yourself properly and save their self respect. Because once its gone you just going to keep ruining it for the rest of your life. Save yourself now don't let anyone put you down and dont let yourself in such troublesome situation that will only invite trouble for yourself. Its you who can bring the change if you really love yourself and know to be selfish. Khuda Hafiz!

ps: I know i was repetitive but its only because the point gets to your head permanently. :)

Tips when u feel down\depressed

I was wondering what people do when they are sad? Like realllllllllllll sad when u feel the world is not yours and nobody around you loves you. What i do in those type of situation is actually lots of stuff few are negative and few works great on me. I wanna share those tips so that any of you may want to use it as well. Because i hate when somebody feels sad or depressed during calamities. If I cant help people in any other way then i make sure i talk to them to calm them down. And in my own calamities thankfully i have always found the closest person to go to and vent.


The first option i use is stop all the thinking and stop thinking of negatives or positives and get to reading The Quran with translation. It is so distracting and interesting that i forget what i was sad about. I read till i feel better. And when i do namaaz i feel so much better. I think of All the positiveness that may happen in the future and think of all that Allah has provided me with. I think of Allah being there for me and then i feel nothing else matters. I think of the calamity and feel that no matter how big it is , it's nothing compare to all the happy things Allah has given me all my life. I think of the worst that could have happened and the worst that other people go through in their lives and comparing to that i feel hopeful and better. I basically console myself. Everyone have their own ways to console themselves so i do it my way depending on the situation.

Second option is venting to your best friend\ the person closes to you. Venting helps! Just nag and wine and complain your heart out till u feel better. But choose wisely who you believe to be your best friend. Always keep yourself in the safe shoes so you are not risking anything and nothing backfires on you. So choose your friend wisely and think before you talk.

Third option is sleeping. Take naps and this is what i meant when i said some of the tips are negative. Because sleeping to forget your problem is something depressed people tend to do a lot. So don't consider yourself as depressed in sad situations because depression is a severe disease. But if you feel you can handle yourself then just take a nap. When i go to sleep i feel when i wake up everything will be okay. Its just a childish habit. And this is what works best for me. Every-time you are sad or feeling down at night tell your mom to sleep with you and hold her and go to sleep. Trust me there is not other peace like that. Your mom is the best support.

Fourth option is watching TV whatever you like most and watch it all day. Usually this is the option that i least use because usually when i am really sad i dont feel like eating, reading, or watching anything. So reading books and watching lots of TV might be a good idea.

Fifth, Find a solution to your problem and if there is no solution than let time take you. Time heals every pain and time will tell. Sometime the biggest problem is what we will look back to and think of and just smile. Everything happens for a reason.

Lastly, think of the reason you are in the situation\sadness\calamities that fell upon you. Somewhere down the road we make some choices in life which leads to our calamities unless fate plays a different role in this situation. It is because of our own choices and decisions in life which brings us to our current situations. So , always be wise in life and think twice before you say something or make a life decision. When nothing works and my tips seem vain to you, simply blame yourself. Trust me do not be a hypocrite.We all face situations according to our own deeds and actions. So, before blaming others blame yourself for the situations and deal with your problems and you will find the answer and solution . Sometimes life hits us hard because of our own mistakes and wrong choices. inshAaLLAH this post was a help to everyone who read. Khuda hafiz !

Nothing changed

Sooooooo it has been a year since i am writing on my blog. I started on January 2011 and nothin much changed in my life within a year and noone really changed around me either.However, i have changed a tiny bit.I have become a hijabi , trying to learn more about Islam , trying to correct myself in many ways and inshaAllah Allah will guide me to do the right always.Other then all that, I am still going to school inshaAllah will be done within a year. After that if Allah wills i will be preparing myself for the teaching test so i can teach high school kids. I dont usually make plans but this is what i have thought for myself as of now. Oh also about marriage , its all unpredictable. Whenever Allah wills but may be i shall be ready within a year inshaAllah. The sooner it is done and over with the better. lol! Well, today's blog wont be any different then my previous blog posts. Only difference is i am going to vent more then give solutions unlike my other posts which is always full of advice, hope , and possibilities.

So, many of you may be wondering what am i doing in Bangladesh afterall? If i have found someone or who do i hang out.. bla bla. Well, i pretty much do the same thing as i did in USA only different is that it's in BD. I go to school four times a week, i spend my time watchin tv or homewrk, internet. I go to my cousinz over the weekends and hang with friends. My life isnt so interesting and i dont complain much. Only sometimes when it gets too monotonous , it can be really annoying.

Anywho, i have seen myself change in many ways over the past years but my thoughts remain the same. I lack patience and sometimes unknowingly lack faith in Allah too. I know this isnt a sign of a true believer but shaitaan has his ways of leading my desires astray. May be this year i will bring the change in my innerself and try to be the person i always wanted to be. Someone strong with lots of patience and a sensible heart that knows how to act wise. In show tremendous amount of patience when someone ticks me off or in terms of dealing with people but very little patience in other deals of life. For example, this girl in my school has been really pissing me off lately. She always has to make comments about me not being able to cover my aura being a hijabi while she is walking around dressed up in i wont mention how. But yeah, my dupatta slightly moves from my chest and suddenly you will see her running from miles away to come tell me about covering myself fully. I don't know why she does it what problem she has with me cuz as far as i know i m realy nice to her.

So, yeah dealing with her needs LOTS of patience which i have though somedays i want to kick her in the butt but my religious thoughts stop me from doing that. So, yeah i have two groups of friends one group is from school and other are my childhood friends who i am very comfortable with. They dont tick me off while the other ones do but i try my best to tag along. Anyways, i have seen so much of this world too and i must say you can be anywhere doing anything and mix with any kind of people as long as you know what your priorities are and know how to handle yourself in situations. So, living in BD is not suffocating since i am learning to handle myself in the environment and people around here.
So, to make this blog short,inshaAllah this year , i will stop having confusion, be more wise in terms of life decisions and stay STRONG at all times whether its dealing with people or my life. I will try to follow how i always wanted to be as a person, strong, religious, and sensible then ever. So, though little has changed in my life inshaAllah lots more to change in a good way.My life did take a new turn but i am still the same person but inshaAllah i live to please Allah first then everyone else along with me. Khuda Hafiz

The perfect guy or My Cinderalla Man ;)

I know by seeing the title those of you who are reading are thinking...hmm ... is she in love? She has found someone? Oh damn may be she did since she moved back home and you are expected to be married off if you move back. Haha! None of these are the case. I was just thinking does the perfect guy exist (the kinda perfect in an individual's view). To me my perfect guy holds many different qualities which are not very difficult if a person happen to have a kind and nice heart.

Let me remove the confusion. The one who will be mine should be extremely nice to me and my family. He doesn't necessarily have to take me out on a shopping spree every month or has to be super rich. He got to give me immense love and someone who is caring. He cares when i am sick and would sit around with me and watch TV. Someone who gives me the highest importance in his life after his parents.He has to pamper me but control me a little too. I have to depend on him in many cases and situations and he would know exactly what to do to handle me. He should know how to handle me in my worst. Someone who doesn't leave me alone when i am angry or upset but gives me advices and makes me feel better. He would take me out once in a while to get me out of boredom( doesn't have to be an exotic vacation). Someone who value me and appreciates what i do for him. He should be understanding and know how to make me laugh. Someone who would cook for me once in a while. He would bring me flowers and candies and surprise me. I guess that is all i need and its that simple. If you can provide me with love and care i don't need much.

Now, comes to the character. I don't really care about his past but he should not let any negativeness in the past get in to our present. He should be striving to be a pious Muslim and struggle to leave out the bad and bring out the good in him always. Someone who follows the Sunnah of our Prophet Muhammad (SAW). He would remind me to pray in-case i forget. Someone who can have Islamic discussion with me for hours and not get bored. He should help me out in the household chores once in a while like our Prophet SAW had helped His wife. He should read the Qur'an and pray five times a day. We would wake up for fajr and pray together. Someone who earns money in a halaal way even if its little. Someone who keeps away from drinking, gambling, bad company. Someone who is all mine and i can put all my trust in to and depend on. He should try to be religious and have patience with me. Someone who can outlook my negativity and appreciate the positives. He should take care of these little things and always put effort in our relationship to be better.

I can go on and on about my demands on a perfect man. But have you ever given it a thought that you get what you deserve? I believe in that completely. So, i can't find someone like that unless i give my all in to improving myself to be as good as i want my life partner to be. This brings me to the Quranic verse : Allah Almighty says (interpretation of the meaning): “Bad statements are for bad people (or bad women for bad men) and bad people for bad statements (or bad men for bad women). Good statements are for good people (or good women for good men) and good people for good statements (or good men for good women) such are innocent of that which people say: For them is pardon and a bountiful provision”
So if A’yesha may Allah be pleased with her is a bad woman then the prophet, peace be upon him is also bad.

In conclusion, I will not find a good hear-ted person until i am good myself. I will get what i deserve. If i am honest, loyal, patient, positive,loving and caring i will get these in return from my life partner. If i lie , talk ill, be fake, and not keep him happy then i cant expect my husband\soul mate to be all perfect to me. Makes sense? Its just not a theory of myself but it is coming from a Quranic Verse Allah says for believing men is for believing women. So , how can i ask Allah for a righteous life partner if i don't strive hard to become pious and righteous myself first? You cant just ask for duaa and expect Allah to answer it. Always strive hard to make yourself better first before you want the world to be all perfect to you and want everything to go right with you. And this verse is what keeps me going seeing all the negativity of the world that at the end of the day, nothing will go wrong with me if i always do the right thing and stay on the halaal path.

So the point of this blog is , do not loose hope. Good people exists and the change can happen but you should bring the change first by applying good in to your life and your character. Before raising finger at someone else ask yourself are you any better? Before being a hypocrite look within yourself. Before asking for a good man to Allah ask yourself are you good enough to deserve that. InshaAllah we all strive to be a better Muslim to gain the best of this life and the hereafter as well. InshaAllah Allah helps us find a righteous life partner and helps us to fight against all evil to live a righteous life.