Get up…Wake up!!

Moving and walking about as if the life is guaranteed.

Have you ever thought while you are busy showing off and party it up, somebody in the world is fighting with cancer or in death bed? This blog post is completely based on what thoughts I am going through and I hope it is just not temporary. Because once reality slaps you in the face, it will be too late. We often may disregard the important fact which can any day haunt us down --- Death. Anywhere and everywhere we go this truth will accompany us. The most dreadful and frightening matter here is we have no security over our own life yet we walk around the earth as if it’s NOT our last. I have heard of few deaths of people I know of and whenever I hear about death it knocks me hard. But why when I hear of death why do I not think of it in general? Every step I walk every breath I take, every moment I live I am facing death but the difference is it slightly passes me by without touching me. The day death in the point of fact takes place; I will be on my own. No mom and dad to help me get out of it. What am I left with after that? The deeds and actions of all the times I lived and could have made a difference.

Instead of a big palace or house, you will be tugged under a dark hole with only pain and agony. Those friends who may have misled us or been good to us in the world will be gone leaving you with nothing but loneliness. The parents who have always loved and cared for us will not be there to save us that time. Those husbands or wives who always protected and were a shelter to each other will be nothing but powerless to save us from the dark hole. Those boyfriends or girlfriends we have had in the Dunyaa will not be of any use. Their dua’a for the dead will not be of any effect because the root of the relationship wasn’t in the basis of the Islamic law. And this is the harsh truth of death which no one can escape yet we walk around the earth as if we have time.

All the worldly properties we own, the diamonds, the gold, the designer wear and shoes will be useless for the hereafter. You will be simply wrapped in a white piece of cloth with nothing to take from the dunyaa. The big roof we live under and the big expensive cars we drive will prove to be nothing compare to the realization we will sense when we are lying in our grave. While we are alive we are constantly thinking of competing with others whether it is about business, properties we own or petty things like who is living a more luxurious life than us. It is a foolish choice to compete and not be satisfied with what Allah has provided you with. It is foolish to devote yourself completely in the materialistic world without thinking of the future. The future will offer nothing but a piece of white cloth and a dark hole to live under.

While we show off and compete with others, think of donation and charity. While we become shopaholics, we may want to think of donating stuff from our wardrobe. Every moment we live, we should make it useful and do one valuable deed than the other to cut down the level of sins we commit. Every moment we think of life we should think of death because this thought will take us back to our Islamic root. We will think of committing less sin thinking we do not have an adequate amount of time to earn excellent deeds. The more you earn the less it should feel. The more sins we commit, the more realization and good deeds should cover up for it. The less we think of what others have the more we will be appreciative with what we have. The less jealous we feel the more confident and better we will feel of ourselves. We should think of impressing Allah and not the people of the dunyaa. We should show off to Allah with our good behavior rather than showing off to people. As I mentioned above they will not tag along with us as our shelter in the grave. The problem with today’s world and its people is that we do not think of death or take it as seriously as it should be taken. Because your life is not guaranteed to you, your body and anatomical parts will be judging against you on the Day of Judgment. You are nothing but a creation of Allah given the chance of free will to build your future for the hereafter. However, we are too busy building our temporary house and life which we are meant to leave sooner or later. It is rightly said in the Quran, “The dunyaa is a paradise to shaitaan and a prison to believer”. Don’t let shaitaan trick you to become worldly instead remember your Islamic valued and root. Where you have come from is your return back. Every moment think of death for it may make a difference in your actions.

This post is a reminder to self in the most importance sense! Good luck people!

Ramadan...sighs*

Assalamu Alaikum to everyone...

This Ramadan is suppose to be a happy journey for everyone as shaitaan is locked away and we get the chance to perform as much good deeds as we can. However, I am not happy... I just feel may be i need more time to fix my mind to get prepared for Ramadan. Because people its HUGE! Do not take Ramadan lightly.

Just like we control our hunger and thirst with the fear of Allah. Likewise, we have to control our tongue not to speak ill of anyone or curse at anyone. We have to control our ears not to hear anything bad/foul. We have to make sure we dont watch anything illicit on T.V. or watch Tv at all. This also means no music! Think it over!! Are we ready for all that?If not we have to ... i mean it aint no joke!

I am living with the terror in my heart that every Year Ramadan passes us by and I promise to improve every year and I am failing highly. There are less good deeds and more bad ones in my account. When I started my hijaab , this was surely not what I have planned on doing. I had the intention to change slowly but surely. I definitely did want to improve myself. However, it seems every year there is only slight change in me in terms of Islamic norms and bigger sins are written in my account.

It just can't go this way right? We have to hurry and pack our bags of good deeds. Our life is a gift from Allah that means anytime anyday He can take it away from us. We dont even know our future, we have no idea about what will happen to us nor do we have any control over our fate ... yet we are roaming around in this world with so much sins in our account without giving it a thought to reform those.

I am just realizing each day that this Ramadan i got so much to improve on but am i really getting started on it? Are you ?

I am just praying hard to control my nafs to fight against the evil shaitaan had left before Ramadan started. I plan to improve on my namaaz and read surahs and Quran and namaz while knowing the meaning. I am going to try not to do any sinful activities while fasting and i think so should you.

It wont be easy but lets pray for ourselves. InshaAllah Allah will listen to our prayers and just hearing the thought that we are all struggling with same issue Allah will make it easy on us all.

Whether you are ready or not atleast little we can do is try to leave out the bad acts of past and move on to better ourselves . We got a full month to do that. InshaAllah we will all try. please if you are reading do make duas for me to reform myself in to a better Muslimah.

With that being said....

HAPPY RAMADAN EVERYONE! EAT WELL, PRAY GOOD, AND STAY HEALTHY!

Remember Allah in times of ease

“Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured.” (Qur’an, 13:28)

When we try to figure out why we are so often bothered, why we feel disturbed internally, or why we feel sad – we need to go back to our hearts. The Prophet (may the peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: “Do not talk too much without remembering and mentioning Allah, for too much talk without mentioning Allah hardens the heart, and the person farthest from Allah is the one with a hard heart.” (Tirmidhi)

SubhanAllah (glory to Allah) – our heart hardens when we do not remember Allah. The heart’s nourishment is the remembrance of Allah, and when we fail to remember Him, it is no wonder that we feel down for no apparent reason.
I missed writing on my blog and its been four months I couldn't write anything. I am done with school and just doing my thesis. So, i am literally free all the time and busy hanging out and chilling. Life cant be any better. Really thankful to Allah for all the times i have been lucky in every step of the way. With this thought i may start my blogpost.

I have been really busy with my brother's Engagement preparation, working out schedule, music,dance, shopping and whatnot! But i have realized something is greatly missing. I came to the realization that no matter how busy one is , He/she must remember Allah at all times. Missing prayer with an excuse thrown such as , " schedule is packed with stuff not relating to worshipping Allah" will not do in the long run. The long run which awaits us all after our death. I have been guilty of missing some of my namaaz time. As soon as i realized i got on to my knees to pray. I remembered all the hard times i had to face and started to pray to Allah and read many Surahs to get through the hard times. But , now that i was really busy having fun, how can i forget to worship our Almighty? Throughout my hard times i have always prayed and got positive results and to forget prayers in times of ease is nothing but an act of selfish.

As soon as that realization hit my mind , i started to get bak to my old routine. The routine which holds praying and reading surahs everyday. For example, Surah Muzammil is said to ease someone's pain and gets someone through their difficulties in times of any hardship. However, i make sure i read that Surah everyday in times of ease with the hope that no hardship will befall upon me and that Surah will protect me at all times.
Therefore, i did'nt miss prayers or reading surah since then. There were guests at my house and i was distracted but i thought i wud read atleast 99 Names of Allah. It gave me a feeling of peace in my heart thinking I am calling out to Allah by His 99 names and nothing will harm me or my family.

Likewise, I feel its the duty of every Muslim to remember Allah at all times becasue if we forget Allah's power surely we will be doomed. It will harden our heart and leave us stranded with nowhere to go. The more we talk about our religion and discuss about the right and wrong the more humble we will become. This blogpost is just another reminder to myself to always keep Allah in my heart and mind and to not forget Allah in times of ease.
Keep a humble heart, be happy with other's happiness, pray for your Muslim brothers and sisters and watch how life will seem more beautiful and things will be in your favor. InshaALLAH. Keep me in your prayers Allah hafiz.

Parents

I am on this blog again after two months. Today's topic deals with such a delicate emotion which will leave y'all feeling deep. We all love our parents.We shower them with love and we care for them. Some of us even take the step to take care of them when they get old. God Bless those kids. However, sometimes we tend to forget about all that our parents have done for us. Sometimes we just take them for granted.
We forget all that our mother has done for us from child birth to marriage to taking care of grand kids and not to mention all the love and prayers in between the tasks. So much hardship they go through. Mommas sometimes save us from trouble when you know that dad is about to give a mouthful. They understand us so well and know exactly what advice to give to better our situation. Their love is so unconditional we tend to take advantage of it. No matter what we do they will forever trust us and shower their love upon us.

Our dad they work hard outside and do that till their last break or until they retire. Sometimes the daddy's don't express all that they feel and during those time they just want peace around them. My dad is the world's greatest dad and he will forever be one. There's so much he does for us but little do we understand because he fails to express all the negativeness. He may get in trouble but will make sure no harm go near us. This is how fathers are ... they complain less , yell less but so much is going in their head and we just need to get the time to understand it all.

This is how parents are. They give us the right solution to every problem. They work as the torchlight to our dark path. They give us hopefulness in times of despair and we can always count on them. Both mother and father have their own ways of struggle with which they fight for just so we get a better living out of it. They sacrifice so much and yet little do we repay them with.
Sometimes we get so busy with our lives that we tend to forget all that our parents have done for us. We appreciate less and take advantage more. There's nothing that we can do to repay them for all that they have done for us but little we can do is realize the struggle they been through.

Every parents have a story and everyone sacrifice little something for their children. We the children in return hurt them a lot, give them a lot of trouble which sometimes become unbearable. They still cope with us. They will still pray for us. But do we pray for them everyday ? Do we act as their well-wishers from heart? Are we really caring about them? Think about it people before its too late. Do not loose the morality and humanity in you. This generation has become such that we are getting more worried about the worldly business than family. Family should come first and we do not have any right to give our parents any misery. It is a shame how some of us can become so heartless and are not giving our parents the right place they deserve.

Its high time we think about this deeply and ponder over it. Do we really care about them like we say we do? Sometimes its not about money. Parents wont see how much their kids are earning and what they are giving them. Sometimes they just want your attention and support just to feel loved for all that they have done. Our parents are precious and the most gifted being in our lives and we should all thank Allah for giving us such good parents who gave us excellent upbringing.

So, go ahead return the favor as much as you can. Sit there and take a moment and think of all that your parents have done for you and realize enough to not do anything to hurt them. Its not just the mother but also our father works very hard for us though he may not be that affectionate like our mothers are. Parents are parents and do not be selfish to look for your happiness first over them because they have sacrificed since you were born in one way or the other. All we have to do is just appreciate and not take advantage. InshaAllah we all take the time to realize the worth and place of our parents in our heart.

Your Dua has been answered.

Today's blog topic will cover something serious and deep. How often have you prayed to Allah and thought your prayers wasn't answered? Many times i have thought that too. However, if you think from deep down, you will realize that your dua has been already answered may be not in the exact manner you wanted but in a better way. In our narrow-mindedness we don't understand the giving. sometimes we r blind to see that our dua has been answered. Allah might have given us something better but we r too busy wanting that particular thing we asked for. We dont think beyond our need and thus, we fail to understand all that Allah has given us. Allah surely answers our prayers may be not the way we wanted but definitely in a better way and for that we need to have faith in Allah. Allah will either give us what we asked for or something better. For example: you wanted to marry a particular bro\sis and Allah has given you someone better. This is Allahs dealing with you which is beyond your imagination. This Allah's way of erasing that calamity that could have befallen upon you due to what u have asked for. We think something is so good and something is so necessary that we pray to Allah so sincerely and Allah answers it in a different way. Allah may not give us exactly what we asked for but with something better only because our prayer was sincere.

I want those of you who are reading to go back to the past years and think of all that you have experienced in life and all that you have prayed for. Is there anything you regret? Aren't you happy at where you are at this point of your life? Its all due to Allah's blessings. You may ask for something and Allah may have given you something out of your expectation and that is what led u to where u r at today. In the long run wasn't what happened to you the best thing that could have happened.. isn't that why u r who u r today? For example: I never thought i would be happy if i move back to Bangladesh. I thought my life, career everything will be a disaster. But i am happy today. I am happy because Bangladesh has changed me in many different ways. I am liking it here and at one point i hated to even think of moving back. And i prayed to Allah to not move back. But Allah has answered this prayer in a different way. This is just a slight example of Allah's mercy. If you think deep, you will know what you have gained from your prayers. And after that you will continuously pray to Allah and grow trust in Allah even more. Little do we know about the divine wisdom.

There is another example of a story i have read online about a brother who was suppose to be on board to reach his destination. If he wasn't to reach his destination on time his whole career would be on stake. Unfortunately, one seal was missing from his passport thus, he couldn't be on the plane. He reached home with distress and misery until he found out that the plane he was suppose to be on has crashed and all the people on plane died. Little do we know about Allah's mercy. Subhanallah! Though the man's career was ruined he couldn't thank Allah enough for where he is at today. This is the power of dua and this is the faith we need to keep in Allah. This is a reminder for me to come back to this over n over when i am mislead-ed. InshaALLAH.

Your dua has been answered and Allah has promised it. Only difference is our narrow mindedness have not understood it yet. However, may be with little patience and with time we would understand the result of our prayer.InshaAllah our sincere prayers will be answered in the best way possible. Remember Allah in times of ease and not only in times of trouble. So what is preventing us from praying to Allah? There is nothing in this world that can happen without Allahs permission. So be a beggar to Allah for whatever you need. Without Allah we are nothing.

Natural Beauty Tips (Home Remedy)

Hi this month's blog post is going to be very different from the other blogs i post. I am going to give many natural beauty tips for hair,face, feet, teeth...etc. These are going to be all natural remedies as i believe in using natural methods for skin or hair more than store bought expensive kinds which doesnt always result in wonders. So, its going to be really easy and some of you might be yudcked out at it. However, I have personally tried these methods on my self so i can assure you from any disappointment. So here it goes..

1) To get rid of dead skin cells or get a brighter , clear and glowy skin: You will need a container which carries a squeezed lime juice and blended tomatoe. Use mixture of tomatoe and lime juice long with one teaspoon of flour to make it in a pasty form. Apply it and leave it on for ten mintues. Rinse off with cold or lukewarm water.

ps: if it gives you a stingy sensation then you may be allergic to the lime juice so you can leave that out.
2) honey and lime juice- one teaspoon of honey and lime juice along with a teaspoon of flour is also great for your skin to glow and come as smooth.

3) Sugar and lime juice- this is another method I use when i run out of my facewash. LOL.. ya trust me it happens quiet often. I use a little pad which i damp with a little bit of lime juice and sprinke some sugar on to the pad then gently scrub it all over my face. After you rinse it off , you will notice how smooth your skin feels. Also you can apply the same method using coconut water or cucumber juice.

4) yogurt and egg mask: Using few tablespoons of yogurt along with one egg and applying it on your skin will help your skin smooth out and glow as well.

5) lentil and banana paste: grinding lentil on a grinder,mashing raw potato(peel off the skin) on a mortar along with mashed banana and using it all over your face helps remove any scars or marks from your face. I recommend this greatly.

-Now, I am not saying all skin types should be using it. See if one of these method works and just stick to it. And if none just applying egg whites on your skin is also a great help. After keeping add whites in your skin and rinsing it off make sure to use egg yolks until its dried. Then rinse it off as well. It will work great. However, i do not like this method because i cannot take the smell of raw egg on my face. But this method is completely risk free.

-If you feel tooth pastes are not coming in handy and you need whiter teeth. Stop buying all these expensive products and try a simpler one that works greatly vanishing any stains from your teeth. I actually love my teeth but i prefer it colgate white :)

1) Teeth Whitenning: Damp your toothbrush and sprinkle some baking soda on it. (Yes baking soda!) and brush your teeth and you will see whitenning results within 14 days InshaAllah.
-If you have dry and cracked feet that needs polishing to help it smooth and remove dark spots, here is a great way that helped me a lot.

1) sugar coat your feet with lime juice, sugar, and olive oil (one tablespoon of each). Gently rub it and then dip your feet in warm water. In the water add some shampoo and salt in it and leave your feet for 10 minutes. you will notice the difference. You can do the same for your hands as well.

-If you have damaged hair full of dandruff, frizz , grease and all that jazz. Try this method below:

1) Get a small bowl and crack an egg , 2 tablespoons of lime juice or vinegar ,yogurt, coconut oil (one tbspn), and henna. Yes, the organic henna i am talking about. Make a paste out of all of that and apply on your hair and leave it for an hour or more. Rinse it with lukewarm water. So far my hair is shiny, silky and my hairgrowth is improving as well. MashaAllah. If you do not have henna then excluding henna, use the rest of the ingredients. But henna does wonder so try to get it.

2) baking soda and shampoo: Use half a teaspoon of baking shoda when applying shampoo to your hair. This helps remove any dust or hair products off your hair. Especially, hair gel or hair spray.

So far i have used these methods and these works perfectly.If you have any questions please ask me as i haven't wrote anything that detailfully here. I hope this will be a great help for anybody who doesn't prefer store bought products over natural remedy. I have personally found this recipes from my mom and some from her old home remedy books. InshaAllah you will try this at home and get wonderful results. Dont be scared or embarassed to use it! :)

PS: Stay tuned for more home remedy for sickness and other stuff. iA.

Everything happens with Allah’s will and permission

And there is not a thing, but with Us are the stores thereof. And We send it not down except in a known measure. (Quran 15:21)

Hello and i am back. I been waiting on a topic for my blog i can write about anything and everything but topic related to Islam never ceaase to amaze me. So leaving aside all my books and tv shows i decided to write yet another blog in relating to Islam. I been busy with school and bunch of books i been reading that i started feeling guilty for not giving enough time for Islamic knowledge. So here i am going to write about how Everything happens with Allah's will so not blame anything or anyone for it.

In the name of Allah, We praise Him, seek His help and ask for His forgiveness. Whoever Allah guides none can misguide, and whoever He allows to fall astray, none can guide them aright. We bear witness that there is none worthy of worship but Allah Alone, and we bear witness that Muhammad (saws) is His slave-servant and the seal of His Messengers.

Surely We have a free will from which we make our destiny and pathways in life. But without Allah's permission not even a leaf of a tree can fall on the ground. So, we must realize that Allah has His control over this world and no matter what we say or do we cannot change that. Allah knows whats best for us. Sometimes there may be situation we cannot bear to survive or wish there were options to choose from when meeting with a decision making. However, we cannot take even a step farther without Allah's will. Any individual, the rising of that individual and the falling of that individual. All this is Allah’s doing and is in His control.The Devil in contrast invites to the thinking that amass wealth, everything will happen. Everything happens through money. Quran says that everything is happening through Allah.

Moreover, no matter what we say or do, deep down we know we got to be strong because this is all Allah's doing. So through any situation you may face or you have taken yourself in to , the outcome is always in Allah's hand. No matter what we want in life and how we go on to achieve it at the end of day you have to put the trust on Allah that He is the controller. The things you want may not be the best thing for you and Allah knows best. The things you ask for may not come to you so easily because Allah did not permit for it to come just yet. Sometimes we are put in test and trials as well. Throughout all situations we just got to learn to have the faith that Allah is the controller and He will either help us to gain something or destroy something of our lives.
Not even does a grain of sand move on this earth, nor a drop of water falls from the heavens, nor does a leaf move or fall from the trees, nor can one even blink their own eyelids….without the precise Will and Permission of their Lord Creator, Most Exalted, Most Supreme!Thus the natural question which would arise is if everything happens, and indeed it does happen only with the Precise Will and Permission of Allah SubhanWatala then why does the Lord Most Merciful allow or permit evil to take place on this earth?

Allah says in the Holy Quran in Chapter 67 Surah Al Mulk verse 2:
He (Allah) created death and life that He may test you, to see which of you is the best in deeds.
Allah Says in the Holy Quran Chapter 21 Surah Anbiyaa verse 35:
Every soul shall have a taste of death: and We test you by evil and by good (only) by way of trial: to Us must ye return.

Now to make it short ....

Whoever chooses to submit his will to the Will of his Creator, and chooses to live his life in accordance with the guidance of his Creator, passes the test of life and is promised the Eternal Mercy, Grace, and Rewards of Allah Subhanah.And whoever amongst man uses his bestowed intelligence and power of reasoning to do everything else but does not recognize or denies his Supreme Creator, refuses to submit his will to the Will of His Creator, and of his own ‘free will’ chooses to live his life in accordance with any guidance other than that of His Supreme Creator, miserably fails the test of life and will have a severe accounting in the Presence of His All-Mighty and Majestic Lord on an Judgment Day.

Thus, Whenever we see something evil we should keep ourselves away from it. Whenever there is a choice from choosing good over bad, choose good. We should pray that Allah helps us achieve our dreams staying in the correct path. those who wish to do good to continue their good, and those who wish to do evil to continue their evil. Thus both good and evil can and only happen with the Permission and Will of the Lord, but He is Pleased with the doers of good, and He is Displeased with the doers of evil. So if you are on the good path inshaAllah good will happen with you.
Just remember praying to Allah wholeheartedly is a cure to anything and everything. When you are met with a dilemma just know that at the end of the day you have chosen your path and with Allah's permission you will meet the outcome. Khuda Hafiz.

When your faith is shaken, turn your eyes to Allah.

"When Allah tests you, it is never intended to destroy you. When He removes something in your possession, it is only in order to empty your hands for an even greater gift."
- Ibn Al-

Reading these lines over and over has brought me to discuss today's blog. Its very simple and gets right to the point. First of all i want to ask, Do you relly have faith in Allah? The complete trust when helpless ? The faith which will take you to your destination without worries? I know the answer in your head is affirmative. However, think it over.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
No ! its not it! We do not have complete faith in Allah. We do not believe in his power when it comes down to the real deal in life,we do not put our trust in Allah completely. We worry so much and stress out over our dreadful situation without leaving it to Allah to take care of. I myself find my belief system shaky when it comes down to a real stressfull situation. I do realize everything is on Allah's hand. We cannot control Allah's decisions but we can control our own actions. Its our action that brings us to our situation so why worry so much? Why tense and be stressed out when you can simply just have faith that Allah will not destroy you, Allah is there to help you.

However, sometimes these thoughts are not enough because we are so grounded by our problems. I believe if you really belive in Allah then this faith will come in your heart automatically. No need to think of anything but you will know right in your head that although there are danger ahead , Allah is there. We need to realize that life is short and time is running by. We have limited time in our hand to utilize it in good things. Its our prime time to show Allah that we do believe in Him. We do believe in His Messenger (SAW). We do keep faith and trust. And most of all we do need to be stronger to fight any situations and learn to leave everything to Allah.

We need to realize that although our posessions may have slipped out of our hand there may be a better grab which will fulfill our wishes. We just need to have faith that no matter how harsh the truth is , we can accept it. We can accept and move on to a greater deal in life. So, even if you have lost something in life and have been miserable, always remember that life goes on. Sooner or later you will accept what comes your way. So why not trust in Allah and accept whatever comes your way? Its easier said than done! But thats life, to complete this life one must give up to get.

So , think carefully do you really have full faith in Allah? If you dont then work on it. Allah loves his servants when they try hard to be on the right track. If any situation sadden you, dont get disheartened and have the faith that something better is coming. I myself need to make myself stronger and work on trusting Allah completely and be patient. Patience is the key to happiness and when there is faith all will fall right in there automatically. So be careful if your belief is shaken. Allah is there to make things right even if somethings have gone out of hand.Instead of getting upset of what you have lost, just wait for the better deal thats coming your way.When there is faith , everything else will give your sight a positive view and nothing will be upsetting. :) And Allah knows best. Khuda Hafiz.

Birth Month blog dedicated to my MOMMY!!!!!

Yay!!! Its my birth month. I want to dedicate this blog to my mommy and i will make her read this pretty soon. Every mother is the world's best guaranteed gift to their child. Alhamdulillah i have an awesome family and the world's most beautiful and wonderful mother. I love my mom very much yet i annoy her and do lots of things that is against her. And someday i wish i could make up for all the wrongs i have done to her and say sorry for all the times i have hurt her intentionally\unintentionally. Even if i get the lives of millions and say sorry to my mom it still wont be enough for all that she has done for me. woohoo so here it goes. Its going to be long and emotional so hold your breath.

A note to my mom:

The nine months hardship: I am sorry mom that i put you through so much unbearable pain. I am sorry for every time you had to throw up for me and every time you felt dizzy and couldn't eat. Sorry for the times i kicked you when i was in your tummy. Sorry for all the pain you had to go through.

Result: I am sorry for all the times i have woke up during midnight crying for milk or potty. I am sorry for the sleepless nights and i bet you had to suffer a lot because of me.

I am sure i have annoyed you in parties and i am sorry every-time i have ruined your make up or even clothes. Sometimes you would not eat on time to make sure to feed me on time. Thanks for all that and even countless thanks wont be enough to appreciate you. It will take me a whole lifetime to thank you for all that hardship you were put through because of me. I would never understand how you have felt i know you were happy yet i have annoyed you a lot.

I just want to thank you for giving birth to me.I want to thank you for giving a life to me which included so many other wonderful things. Thanks for all the clothes , shoes , hair accessories you got me and still get me. Thanks for spending time with me. I wish i was capable of giving you half of the happiness you have showered me with. I want to thank you for bringing me up and for teaching me all that you have taught me throughout my life. You have been a great inspiration and motivation to do right things always. You have always came to save me in troublesome situations. You were always there to give the perfect advice to my situations. You were the best math teacher during my childhood.

I know even til today when you are sick you pretend to be all fine and dandy so you could be a help to us. So you could give us food on time and take care of the house. I am sorry if i cant match up to your expectations and cant take care of you well enough when you are sick. When i used to fall sick you were the best support i had.You made sure to bring me food, give me head massage and just the worry in your face would give me peace while sick. You are the best mom any daughter could ask for.

You remember the days i would randomly tell you to sleep with me at night because i am scared of ghosts? Every time i did that i was actually sad about things i couldn't share but just the fact you were next to me helped all the sadness disappear. You have that magic,mom. I have that miraculous bonding with you that when you are around everything else feels positive. I feel safe and secure. Your love is so guaranteed , i dont have to worry about you leaving me or for you to prove your love for me. I know its there and it will never be gone. I just wish i could give you the same love you give me. Its a shame that i can never match up to that level even if i try all my life.

I could go on and on about you because you are just that amazing. I know by now you already got teary and few drops have fallen down your cheeks as well. How sweet! I am sure i am in the other room now because i dont want to be in the emotional scene. But i will be there to hug you in a bit ;)

I love you mom you are the world's most beautiful mother and thanks for bringing me to this world. I thank Allah for having you, Alhamdulillah. May Allah always keep you happy, safe and healthy.

PS: i am still jealous that your hair is more beautiful than mine. grrrr!! hehe..

So here it is for those who are reading. Go ahead and give your mom a tight hug and appreciate all that little to big things she has done for you all her life. Think before you annoy her because she has gone through so much because of you. She deserves to be treated like a queen. She is an angel in human form in your life. Keep her close to heart and dont take her love for granted. Your mom deserves all the love in the world and all the appreciation in the world just for being a mother. :)

Self-Respect

Many of us forget how important it is to have self respect. Now, you may be thinking everyone carries self respect duhh!! No! You are wrong! Somewhere down the road we are so insecure about ourselves that we do things which may risk our self esteem. I want to tell those who are reading about the importance of having self respect for yourself and that is one of the most important key to happiness. I have let myself down quiet few times and its all my fault that i haven't kept myself safe in different situations. To have respect for yourself, to care about your own self, to love yourself fully is very much needed in today's world. If you can learn to love yourself and really want to be selfish then trust me there won't be any problem in your life.

We love ourselves the most and we act selfish many times. But have you ever realized that we don't love ourselves the way we should? No, we haven't thought about that. One should always keep themselves in the highest level that way no one can dare to touch anybody's self esteem or ruin his ego. Many times we give up and do things which are against our own wishes. I want you to stop and think... why? Why do things that is against your will ? Why do things that you know may hurt you or be a damage to you in the future? Why not prevent yourself from trouble? And why not be wise?

Yes, the answer to the questions are already well known to us. We are either led astray by satan or we do things to make others happy even if that means you are unhappy. I say always do what your heart and mind feels is right. Think properly! Learn to think of the good and bad of everything and learn to save yourself from trouble. If you really love yourself you wont get yourself in a mess, you wont listen to satan and lastly everybody else around you will love you. First love to have respect and love for yourself then think of others. Don't put yourself in confusion and mess. You know who you are , what you want, how you will do it . Then why give yourself so much complications?

I am sure some of you are puzzled with my words. But hey think! I am sure you are one of those who have invited trouble in your life by going against your own will. I am sure you are the one who have made yourself lose your self respect at some point in your life. I am sure you are the one who dont love yourself properly like you should.

So i wil like to end this blog with few tips. Make sure you care about yourself. Go ahead and cut communication with those you do not like or those who put you down. Go ahead and stop listenin to satan and make your life here a hell and building a house in hell for the hereafter as well. Go ahead and take a step forward to a new YOU the you who know how to have respect and know how to respect others as well. The moment you stop and think that the things i am doing may harm my self-esteem , stop it then and there! Learn to not care sometimes. Learn to not give a crap about what the world thinks about you. Think of yourself first and do the things that will keep you in the safe field. I hope i made sense and those who can relate to this topic will soon realize the importance of loving yourself properly and save their self respect. Because once its gone you just going to keep ruining it for the rest of your life. Save yourself now don't let anyone put you down and dont let yourself in such troublesome situation that will only invite trouble for yourself. Its you who can bring the change if you really love yourself and know to be selfish. Khuda Hafiz!

ps: I know i was repetitive but its only because the point gets to your head permanently. :)

Tips when u feel down\depressed

I was wondering what people do when they are sad? Like realllllllllllll sad when u feel the world is not yours and nobody around you loves you. What i do in those type of situation is actually lots of stuff few are negative and few works great on me. I wanna share those tips so that any of you may want to use it as well. Because i hate when somebody feels sad or depressed during calamities. If I cant help people in any other way then i make sure i talk to them to calm them down. And in my own calamities thankfully i have always found the closest person to go to and vent.


The first option i use is stop all the thinking and stop thinking of negatives or positives and get to reading The Quran with translation. It is so distracting and interesting that i forget what i was sad about. I read till i feel better. And when i do namaaz i feel so much better. I think of All the positiveness that may happen in the future and think of all that Allah has provided me with. I think of Allah being there for me and then i feel nothing else matters. I think of the calamity and feel that no matter how big it is , it's nothing compare to all the happy things Allah has given me all my life. I think of the worst that could have happened and the worst that other people go through in their lives and comparing to that i feel hopeful and better. I basically console myself. Everyone have their own ways to console themselves so i do it my way depending on the situation.

Second option is venting to your best friend\ the person closes to you. Venting helps! Just nag and wine and complain your heart out till u feel better. But choose wisely who you believe to be your best friend. Always keep yourself in the safe shoes so you are not risking anything and nothing backfires on you. So choose your friend wisely and think before you talk.

Third option is sleeping. Take naps and this is what i meant when i said some of the tips are negative. Because sleeping to forget your problem is something depressed people tend to do a lot. So don't consider yourself as depressed in sad situations because depression is a severe disease. But if you feel you can handle yourself then just take a nap. When i go to sleep i feel when i wake up everything will be okay. Its just a childish habit. And this is what works best for me. Every-time you are sad or feeling down at night tell your mom to sleep with you and hold her and go to sleep. Trust me there is not other peace like that. Your mom is the best support.

Fourth option is watching TV whatever you like most and watch it all day. Usually this is the option that i least use because usually when i am really sad i dont feel like eating, reading, or watching anything. So reading books and watching lots of TV might be a good idea.

Fifth, Find a solution to your problem and if there is no solution than let time take you. Time heals every pain and time will tell. Sometime the biggest problem is what we will look back to and think of and just smile. Everything happens for a reason.

Lastly, think of the reason you are in the situation\sadness\calamities that fell upon you. Somewhere down the road we make some choices in life which leads to our calamities unless fate plays a different role in this situation. It is because of our own choices and decisions in life which brings us to our current situations. So , always be wise in life and think twice before you say something or make a life decision. When nothing works and my tips seem vain to you, simply blame yourself. Trust me do not be a hypocrite.We all face situations according to our own deeds and actions. So, before blaming others blame yourself for the situations and deal with your problems and you will find the answer and solution . Sometimes life hits us hard because of our own mistakes and wrong choices. inshAaLLAH this post was a help to everyone who read. Khuda hafiz !

Nothing changed

Sooooooo it has been a year since i am writing on my blog. I started on January 2011 and nothin much changed in my life within a year and noone really changed around me either.However, i have changed a tiny bit.I have become a hijabi , trying to learn more about Islam , trying to correct myself in many ways and inshaAllah Allah will guide me to do the right always.Other then all that, I am still going to school inshaAllah will be done within a year. After that if Allah wills i will be preparing myself for the teaching test so i can teach high school kids. I dont usually make plans but this is what i have thought for myself as of now. Oh also about marriage , its all unpredictable. Whenever Allah wills but may be i shall be ready within a year inshaAllah. The sooner it is done and over with the better. lol! Well, today's blog wont be any different then my previous blog posts. Only difference is i am going to vent more then give solutions unlike my other posts which is always full of advice, hope , and possibilities.

So, many of you may be wondering what am i doing in Bangladesh afterall? If i have found someone or who do i hang out.. bla bla. Well, i pretty much do the same thing as i did in USA only different is that it's in BD. I go to school four times a week, i spend my time watchin tv or homewrk, internet. I go to my cousinz over the weekends and hang with friends. My life isnt so interesting and i dont complain much. Only sometimes when it gets too monotonous , it can be really annoying.

Anywho, i have seen myself change in many ways over the past years but my thoughts remain the same. I lack patience and sometimes unknowingly lack faith in Allah too. I know this isnt a sign of a true believer but shaitaan has his ways of leading my desires astray. May be this year i will bring the change in my innerself and try to be the person i always wanted to be. Someone strong with lots of patience and a sensible heart that knows how to act wise. In show tremendous amount of patience when someone ticks me off or in terms of dealing with people but very little patience in other deals of life. For example, this girl in my school has been really pissing me off lately. She always has to make comments about me not being able to cover my aura being a hijabi while she is walking around dressed up in i wont mention how. But yeah, my dupatta slightly moves from my chest and suddenly you will see her running from miles away to come tell me about covering myself fully. I don't know why she does it what problem she has with me cuz as far as i know i m realy nice to her.

So, yeah dealing with her needs LOTS of patience which i have though somedays i want to kick her in the butt but my religious thoughts stop me from doing that. So, yeah i have two groups of friends one group is from school and other are my childhood friends who i am very comfortable with. They dont tick me off while the other ones do but i try my best to tag along. Anyways, i have seen so much of this world too and i must say you can be anywhere doing anything and mix with any kind of people as long as you know what your priorities are and know how to handle yourself in situations. So, living in BD is not suffocating since i am learning to handle myself in the environment and people around here.
So, to make this blog short,inshaAllah this year , i will stop having confusion, be more wise in terms of life decisions and stay STRONG at all times whether its dealing with people or my life. I will try to follow how i always wanted to be as a person, strong, religious, and sensible then ever. So, though little has changed in my life inshaAllah lots more to change in a good way.My life did take a new turn but i am still the same person but inshaAllah i live to please Allah first then everyone else along with me. Khuda Hafiz

The perfect guy or My Cinderalla Man ;)

I know by seeing the title those of you who are reading are thinking...hmm ... is she in love? She has found someone? Oh damn may be she did since she moved back home and you are expected to be married off if you move back. Haha! None of these are the case. I was just thinking does the perfect guy exist (the kinda perfect in an individual's view). To me my perfect guy holds many different qualities which are not very difficult if a person happen to have a kind and nice heart.

Let me remove the confusion. The one who will be mine should be extremely nice to me and my family. He doesn't necessarily have to take me out on a shopping spree every month or has to be super rich. He got to give me immense love and someone who is caring. He cares when i am sick and would sit around with me and watch TV. Someone who gives me the highest importance in his life after his parents.He has to pamper me but control me a little too. I have to depend on him in many cases and situations and he would know exactly what to do to handle me. He should know how to handle me in my worst. Someone who doesn't leave me alone when i am angry or upset but gives me advices and makes me feel better. He would take me out once in a while to get me out of boredom( doesn't have to be an exotic vacation). Someone who value me and appreciates what i do for him. He should be understanding and know how to make me laugh. Someone who would cook for me once in a while. He would bring me flowers and candies and surprise me. I guess that is all i need and its that simple. If you can provide me with love and care i don't need much.

Now, comes to the character. I don't really care about his past but he should not let any negativeness in the past get in to our present. He should be striving to be a pious Muslim and struggle to leave out the bad and bring out the good in him always. Someone who follows the Sunnah of our Prophet Muhammad (SAW). He would remind me to pray in-case i forget. Someone who can have Islamic discussion with me for hours and not get bored. He should help me out in the household chores once in a while like our Prophet SAW had helped His wife. He should read the Qur'an and pray five times a day. We would wake up for fajr and pray together. Someone who earns money in a halaal way even if its little. Someone who keeps away from drinking, gambling, bad company. Someone who is all mine and i can put all my trust in to and depend on. He should try to be religious and have patience with me. Someone who can outlook my negativity and appreciate the positives. He should take care of these little things and always put effort in our relationship to be better.

I can go on and on about my demands on a perfect man. But have you ever given it a thought that you get what you deserve? I believe in that completely. So, i can't find someone like that unless i give my all in to improving myself to be as good as i want my life partner to be. This brings me to the Quranic verse : Allah Almighty says (interpretation of the meaning): “Bad statements are for bad people (or bad women for bad men) and bad people for bad statements (or bad men for bad women). Good statements are for good people (or good women for good men) and good people for good statements (or good men for good women) such are innocent of that which people say: For them is pardon and a bountiful provision”
So if A’yesha may Allah be pleased with her is a bad woman then the prophet, peace be upon him is also bad.

In conclusion, I will not find a good hear-ted person until i am good myself. I will get what i deserve. If i am honest, loyal, patient, positive,loving and caring i will get these in return from my life partner. If i lie , talk ill, be fake, and not keep him happy then i cant expect my husband\soul mate to be all perfect to me. Makes sense? Its just not a theory of myself but it is coming from a Quranic Verse Allah says for believing men is for believing women. So , how can i ask Allah for a righteous life partner if i don't strive hard to become pious and righteous myself first? You cant just ask for duaa and expect Allah to answer it. Always strive hard to make yourself better first before you want the world to be all perfect to you and want everything to go right with you. And this verse is what keeps me going seeing all the negativity of the world that at the end of the day, nothing will go wrong with me if i always do the right thing and stay on the halaal path.

So the point of this blog is , do not loose hope. Good people exists and the change can happen but you should bring the change first by applying good in to your life and your character. Before raising finger at someone else ask yourself are you any better? Before being a hypocrite look within yourself. Before asking for a good man to Allah ask yourself are you good enough to deserve that. InshaAllah we all strive to be a better Muslim to gain the best of this life and the hereafter as well. InshaAllah Allah helps us find a righteous life partner and helps us to fight against all evil to live a righteous life.

Just a phase in life...

ioasdiashiashdaihdaiosdfiasujoasjoasjasojaojdasiodj When i am upset i either write a poem or write on my diary or listen to music that goes with my current situation.The best options i use so far is pray or read surahs. I have done that. However, this blog is a second best option because i rather keep it short and sweet and hope to come back here at a time where this will just be a faded story. Every story has a sad truth and everyone finds a way to console themselves in life or live on to move on. Life goes on... i guess you just always got to close one chapter in life to begin a new one with the purpose of keeping yourself happy and sane. ughhh ..... i am going through this weird phase in life where i am blaming myself for every little mistakes i have done in my life and every little steps i took in my life which was just wrong. But then i think to myself everything happens for a reason and i am where i am because of those decisions i made. The other side says may be if i took a different route in life, things would have been different and lot better. Just why , why it gotta be so complicated? Its all about choices, i am where i stand is because of the choices i made in my life. Its all up to you how you want to make your life and build your little world. Only difference is some are very wise and some are very naive. I don't know which category i fall under but i am definitely the type who seeks for momentary happiness and not think of the future ahead. May be if i thought of future , life would be different for me. But i still stay positive since i am very good at consoling myself. I always be greatful to Allah for giving me everything that i need to live a happy life and for always keeping me safe and sound. Its not about me being ungreatful or blaming anyone around me. Its just about me and my innerself, i just wish i was wise. I wish i took a different route in life and made different choices about certain situations. I guess it was my age or its my age which is the cause of many faulty acts. I guess its called growing up and experience. I might be confusing you but i am confused myself. Sometimes it is as if i dont know myself, i dont know anything and i just let time take me. I guess it is very important that a person knows himself well. Its important to get to know yourself , understand yourself and then take any steps in life. It is important to be wise in every step of the way in life. Because every bit matters and every choices will build your life. Its important to be strong and not let your heart or mind to fall weak in any kind of circumstances. Somewhere down the road i have failed to do so , so i am in a regretful stage. But then you just got to live with the hope that you still got a chance to turn the table , turn your story around and make things better. You get many chances in life the difference is you got to be careful enough to not miss it. Life is full of mistakes, misery, regrets.. thats why i will be striving hard to build a home in paradise to free me from any negativities. This world is like that thats why its important to keep yourself sane and good for the better hereafter. Thank Allah every moment and inshaAllah Allah guides us all in to doing the right thing in life and make the right choices. I will end this blog with this duwa for myself and every Muslim brothers and Sisters. (O Allah!) Please do not leave me to my own self Because if You abandon me to my own desires I might be drawn towards evil and away from goodness and I have no support except Your Mercy. Please guide me and help me be true to myself and my devotion to your beautiful religion. help me save myself from the clutch of shaitaan and forgive me of my sins and if i repeat em again forgive me again and guide me Ya Ar Rahmanur Rahim.

Heaven in Hell

“And do not look towards that by which We have given enjoyment to [some] categories of them, [its being but] the splendor of worldly life by which We test them. And the provision of your Lord is better and more lasting.” (Quran 20:131) To me this world is like a heaven in hell depending on how the people lead their life as per their wish. Most importantly how they are handling their actions and deeds in this life will make the difference for the hereafter. We are all getting tested by Allah in this life and world. We are also given a free will which we must take advantage of and choose the right way. We are given one chance to live and many chances to turn our bad deeds in to good. Now, the reason i said this world is heaven in hell is because the worldy fun and entertainment will only lead one and misguide a person towards everything that is haraam. Thus, the real test is when we control our nafs(desire) and sacrifice our shaitaan given needs to make Allah happy. CRUCIAL TESTS~"I will mislead them and I will create in them false desires; I will order them to slit the ears of cattle and to deface the (fair) nature created by Allah." Whoever, forsaking Allah, takes Satan for a friend, hath of a surety suffered a loss that is manifest. (An-Nisa 4:119) Satan promised Allah to mislead us. He promised to change the nature created by Allah. We see many examples of this today and really no offense to anyone. We see girls taking many technological advantages to beautify themselves. They fix their teeth without any health purposes. They get tattoo done in their body. They pluck their eyebrows and i myself have done that in the past and inshaAllah i have quitted for good. InshaAllah i can keep that up for the rest of my life. We also see all the entertainment involving mostly haram activities such as clubs,girls and boys involved in sports, tv,music,chat,phones... and many more. We all seem to use the bad side of it including myself (in some cases). So, the worldy pleasure has amazed us so much that we forget that paradise is unimaginably beautiful. If this world is created by Allah Almighty and we are so fascinated by it, imagine the better place Allah has promised for us if we obey him and his Rasul (SAW). This world will bloom for a while and then when you are in your grave , you will be left with nothing but your deeds. So watch out and watch what you choose to do in your life, who you hang out with, who you choose to make your life partner and most importantly watch yourself, are you following Islam properly? I am still striving to be a better Muslim and still try hard to fix many mistakes i repeatedly make. InshaAllah Allah guide us all in to doing the right thing. Can you imagine waking up in your grave and answering to the Angel who will come to you with three questions.If you fail to answer then imagine the grave torment starting till Judgment Day. And then when the Hour comes, you will be destined to be in the place you were promised (hell or heaven). But, if your deeds are sound, thats just awesome, Alhamdulillah. So, its important to think of death every now and then. Its important we think of the Hereafter because that matters more than anything. We should give ourselves time to maintain the worldy business along with worshipping Allah. Allah will inshaAllah guide us if we help ourselves and protect ourselves. Remember you are your own protector, you make your life noone builds your life as per their wish. Its you who depend on your own self and you who make your life or break it. At the end of the day , its your choice so be wise. I hope to take my own advice too. IA. So, i just decided to write this blog thinking of all the worldly pleasure and how i try to control my desires and wantings each day. This world and its entertainment and shaitaan's whisper does sound good but it will only destroy your own life for the eternity. So, though everything about this world is so amazing, try to think of a more amazing place, paradise. So be good to yourself including others. Dont get carried away by shaitaans whispers and always control your nafs thats what i am trying everyday. May Allah help you all and keep me in your duas. Khuda Hafiz.

The Inner self and I

I have been away from my blog for a while. I couldn't get my mind fixed in to what to write. As some of you may know about the drastic change in me. I am trying to be more religious as day goes by. However, its not easy. What you physically apply to yourself doesn't define you but what you desire from within and how you control your nafs (desire) defines your character. Because when one is saying one thing and struggling with his thoughts will not really help him overcome his situation. Allah is omniscient nothing is hidden from him. I know this is going to be random but i remembered a scene from Shakespeare's Hamlet to actually connect to my situation. I am sure everyone read it or at least know the drama. When King Hamlet's brother Claudius seeks repentance to god he basically struggles with his thoughts and he knows it. He knows that he is saying one thing but not truly repenting from heart , his words are not matching with his thoughts. I myself say one thing and doing the total opposite. I sometimes while sinning ask for forgiveness. Now, that's permissible. But sometimes it gets really hard to control your desire. So, i sometimes being a normal human being, Allah's slave struggling with the same thing. Sometimes i apply Islamic rulings in my life and on the other hand go astray in other important things. Such as watching tv, gossip, lying or even like argument with my mom. See, these actually fall under major sins. And somewhere down the road, i feel guilty and trying my best to control my anger, any sort of disrespect habits in me, etc. Thus, i am not perfect and not completely pious. I ask for everyone's prayers on that. I really want to fix other mistakes of mine and repent truly for many many sins i have committed in the past or still am committing. Also, the point is not how you have physically changed yourself with your clothing and personality but what really has changed inside your heart and intentions. So, i pray for myself and all the Muslim brothers and sisters to always keep their heart and mind pious and then physically apply it and only then the real meaning of it will come out. And me, i am struggling still. I know i have changed a lot and for the better but there are still things which my inner self struggles with in my everyday life. Theres still anger in me that leads to many wrongdoings. There's still things inside my head that needs to be fixed. First and foremost fix my intention and purify my heart is what i am struggling with. Obviously, i am not an angel this cant be done overnight. But, everyday there's a battle with the bad me. And this blog may seem pointless to some of you. But, may be somewhere down the road you are suffering with the same situation that IS curable. Only difference is you have to be ready to bring the change in you. The point is always be truthful to yourself, always know what you want TRULY. Always love yourself and help yourself be a better human being and a better Muslim because if you cant help yourself no one can. Always have faith and hope in Allah and be positive. If you help yourself Allah will make the path easier for you inshaAllah.

How to repent for sins in Islam (frm my discussion)

It is important to seek forgiveness to Allah and many of us today forget to do that thinking we are sinners and embarassed to ask for forgiveness. Those who think that way are wrong and still under the shade of shaitaan since shaitaan makes them think that way so they don't repent. If they repent, shaitaan becomes the looser since sincere repentence is surely answered by Allah if Allah wills. So, no matter how big of a sin it is or how small it is , its important to ask forgiveness each and everyday. Everytime you do a sin, turn to Allah you never know Allah will probably give you hidayaa the very next minute and builds in you teh guilt and realization to never go down the path of sinning again. Never underestimate Allah's power and mercy. Today's blog will cover the importance of repentence and the importance of traning yourself to fight against your own nafs in order to stay away from sinning. O you who believe! Turn to Allaah with sincere repentance! It may be that your Lord will expiate from you your sins, and admit you into Gardens under which rivers flow (Paradise)” [al-Tahreem 66:8] “In these verses, Allaah links expiation of sin and admission to Paradise to sincere repentance, which includes giving up sin and avoiding it, regretting what has happened in the past and sincere resolve never to return to it out of fear and respect for Allaah, hoping for His reward and fearing His punishment.” With regard to your saying that you repent and then go back to sin, then you repent and then go back to sin, we say to you that even if you go back to sin time and time again, you should repent a great deal and annoy your Shaytaan who is laying in wait for you. Remember that Allaah “spreads out His hand at night to accept the repentance of those who sinned during the day, and He spreads out His hand during the day to accept the repentance of those who sinned during the night, (and this will continue) until the sun rises from the west.” (Narrated by Muslim, 2759) The gate of repentance is open. Abu Hurayrah said: “The Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: ‘Whoever repents before the sun rises from the west, Allaah will accept his repentance.’” (Narrated by Muslim, 2703). And the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Allaah will accept the repentance of His slave so long as the death rattle has not yet reached his throat.” (Narrated by al-Tirmidhi and classed as hasan by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Tirmidhi, 2802). Keep in mind that Allah even forgives unbelievers and hypocrites who fought against Him and His Messenger, if they turn back to Allah with sincere and true repentance: [The Hypocrites shall be cast into the lowest depths of the Fire: no helper will you find for them; But those who repent, mend their ways, hold fast to Allah, and are sincere in their devotion to Him—they shall be numbered with the believers. And soon Allah will grant to the believers a reward of immense value.] (An-Nisaa’ 4:145–146) [Those who conceal the clear signs We have sent down, and the guidance, after We have made it clear for the people in the Book—on them shall be Allah’s curse, and the curse of those entitled to curse, except those who repent and make amends and openly declare the Truth. Toward them I shall relent; for I am the Relenting one and Most Merciful.] (Al-Baqarah 2:159-160 Still, there is one kind of repentance Allah will not accept: the insincere repentance offered when death comes to a man. This is actually the moment a man meets the angels of death. Of this the Qur’an says [Allah accepts the repentance of those who do evil in ignorance and repent soon afterwards; to them Allah will turn in mercy: for Allah is full of knowledge and wisdom. Of no avail is the repentance of those who continue to do evil, until death faces one of them, and he says, “Now have I repented indeed” nor of those who die rejecting Faith: for them We have prepared a painful chastisement.] (An-Nisaa’ 4:17 –18) In the Qur’an Allah gives the striking example of such an act of repentance made at the last moment. Pharaoh, who chased Moses and the believers in order to kill them, ended by expressing his repentance while he drowned in the sea, a miracle wrought by Allah. [When the (fate of) drowning overtook him, he said: I believe that there is no god except Him Whom the Children of Israel believe in: I am of those who submit (to Allah in Islam).] (Yunus 10:90) However Allah’s response to him was as follows: [Ah now! But a little while before, you were in rebellion! and you perpetrated mischief (and violence!)] (Yunus 10:91) Since repentance is essential to the eternal salvation of man, one should well be aware of its importance and observe this form of worship to the best of one’s ability. One may have sinned extensively or have rebelled against one’s Creator. Yet, Allah encompasses His servants with so much mercy that He grants eternal salvation in response to a sincere repentance: [When those who believe in Our signs, come to you say: Peace be upon you: Your Lord has decreed for Himself (the rule of) mercy: truly, if any of you committed evil in ignorance, and thereafter repented, and mended his ways, (he would find) Allah Oft-forgiving and Most Merciful.] (Al-An`am 6:54) Maghfira: Forgiveness of Allāh, The Glorified and The Exalted On the authority of Hadrat Anas (may Allāh be pleased with him) who said: I heard Allāh's Prophetic Messenger (may Allāh's blessings and peace be upon him) say: Allāh the Almighty said: O Son of Ādam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Ādam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask for forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you; O son of Ādam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as it. (Tirmidhī) (Hadīth Qudsī) Hadrat Abū Sa'īd al-Khudrī (may Allāh be pleased with him) relates that the Holy Prophet Muhammad (may Allāh's blessings and peace be upon him) said: A person from amongst a nation of the past, having slain ninety-nine persons, inquired as to who was the most learned person in the world. He was directed to a monk (who had given up the world). He went to the hermit and said: ?I have killed ninety-nine persons. Is there any chance of repentance left for me?" The hermit answered: "No". The man killed the hermit also and completed his century of victims. The killer asked again, ?Who is the most learned person in this world?? He was directed to a learned man. Accordingly he went to him and said. ?I have killed one hundred persons. Is there any hope of repentance left for me?? The learned man said, "Yes, nothing can stand between you and repentance: Proceed to such and such a land. In this land are (pious) people who worship Allāh. Join them in their worship of Allāh and do not return to your home country because it is an evil place?. The man started for this land. He had covered only half the distance when he met with his death. A dispute arose between the angel of mercy and the angel of torment as to who should take charge of his soul. The former pleaded that he had come as a penitent turning towards Allāh, and the latter contended that the deceased had never done a good deed. Then there arrived an angel disguised as a human and the contending angels agreed that he should be the arbiter between them. He directed them to measure the distance between the two lands. To whichever he is nearer, to that one he belongs. So they carried out the measurement and found the land of pious persons to be closer. The angel of mercy thus took charge of him. (Bukhārī and Muslim) Repentance breeds good deeds, whilst sinning (without repentance) can cause deprivation of obedience altogether. It has been said that committing sins regularly will darken and harden the heart. It may even lead a person to reject Allah completely (Allah forbid) or lead him to commit a bigger sin. There is no recourse for a sinner except to ask Allah for forgiveness and to feel great regret for his actions. Repentance is to repent from the heart, to train the heart into obedience and to make a firm resolution never to commit the sin again. The repenting person should remember three facts: 1. The grave consequence of sins. 2. The painful punishment for sins and 3. The helplessness of the servant with regards to these two things. "Repentance has a door whose span is the distance between East and West," says a hadith (and in another version, its span is the distance travelled in 70 years). "It will not be closed until the sun rises from the west." Listen to the call of Allah, "O’ my slaves! You sin morning and evening and I forgive all your sins. So call on Me, I’ll forgive you all your sins." Allah extends His hands in the night to forgive the sinner of the day and extends His hands in the day to forgive the sinner of the night. Moreover, He loves to hear excuses. Therefore, why don’t you turn to Him. [If Allah were to punish men according to what they deserve, He would not leave on the surface of the earth one single living creature: but He gives them respite for a stated term.] (Fatir 35:45) But man is weak and surrounded by enemies on all sides, and his own self urges him to do evil, and the Shaytaan flows through him like blood, and he lives in this world which is attractive to him… so how can he be safe from these enemies unless Allaah has mercy on him? However, Hell is surrounded with whims and desires, and Paradise is surrounded with difficulties. So each person must turn to Allaah and ask Him to help him to remember Him and be grateful to Him and to worship Him properly. Abu Bakr came to the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) and said to him, “Teach me a du’aa’ that I can say in my prayer.” He said, “Say Allaahumma inni zalamtu nafsi zulman katheeran wa laa yaghfir al-dhunooba illa anta faghfir li maghfiratan min ‘indika warhamni innaka anta al-Ghafoor al-Raheem (O Allaah, I have done great injustice to myself and no one forgives sin except You. Grant me forgiveness from You and have mercy on me, for You are the Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful).” (Narrated by al-Bukhaari, 834; Muslim, 2705). There was another Sahaabi – one of the best and most knowledgeable of the Sahaabah – to whom the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said, “I love you, O Mu’aadh.” (Mu’aadh said), “And I love you, O Messenger of Allaah.” The Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Do not forget to say in every prayer, ‘Rabbi a’inni ‘ala dhikrika wa shukrika wa husni ‘ibaadatika (O Allaah, help me to remember You, thank You and worship You properly.).’” (al-Nasaa’i, 1303; classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Nasaa’i, 1236). 6616 Nu'man b. Bashir reported: Allah is more pleased with the repentance of a believing servant than of a person who set out on a journey with a provision of food and drink on the back of his camel. He went on until he came to a waterless desert and he felt like sleeping. So he got down under the shade of a tree and was overcome by sleep and his camel ran away. As he got up he tried to see (the camel) standing upon a mound. but did not find it. He then got upon the other mound, but could not see anything. He then climbed upon the third mound but did not see anything until he came back to the place where he had been previously. And as he was sitting (in utter disappointment) there came to him the camel, till that (camel) placed its nosestring in his hand. Allah is more pleased with the repentance of His servant than the person who found (his lost camel) in this very state. Simak reported that Sha'bi was of the opinion that Nu'min traced it to Allah's Apostle (may peace be upon him). Simak, however, did not hear that himself. You should give up the sin for the sake of Allaah and not for any other reason such as not being able to do it or repeat it, or being afraid of what people will say, for example. The person who gives up a sin because it may affect his standing or reputation among people, or because it may cost him his job, cannot be described as having repented. The person who gives up sins for the sake of his health and strength cannot be described as having repented, such as a person who gives up zinaa (adultery) and immoral actions for fear of contagious deadly diseases, or for fear that they may weaken his body and his memory. The person who refrains from taking a bribe for fear that it may be being offered by undercover officers cannot be described as having repented. The person who gives up drinking alcohol and taking drugs because he has become bankrupt cannot be described as having repented. Similarly, the person who is unable to commit sin because of something that lies beyond his control cannot be described as having repented, such as a liar who becomes paralyzed and loses the power of speech, or an adulterer who loses the ability to engage in intercourse, or a thief who has an accident and loses his limbs In such cases, a person has to feel regret and stop wishing to commit sin, or he has to feel sorry for what has happened in the past o someone like this the Messenger (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Regret is repentance.” (narrated by Ahmad and Ibn Maajah; Saheeh al-Jaami’, 6802) He should feel repelled by the sin and the harm it causes This means that sincere repentance cannot be accompanied by feelings of enjoyment and pleasure when remembering past sins, or wishing to go back to it in the future. – being deprived of blessings – less help from Allaah – anxiety – more bad deeds – getting used to sin – the sinner becomes insignificant in the sight of Allaah – he becomes insignificant in the sight of people – the curse of the animals will be upon him – he will bear marks of humiliation – his heart will be sealed and he will come under the curse (of Allaah) – his du’aa’ will not be answered – cause of mischief on land and sea – loss of gheerah (protective jealousy) – loss of modesty – the blessings of Allaah will disappear – punishment will befall him – terror in the heart of the sinner – falling into the clutches of the Shaytaan – a bad end – punishment in the Hereafter. “Friends on that Day will be foes one to another except Al-Muttaqoon (the pious)” [al-Zukhruf 43:67] Bad friends will curse one another on the Day of Resurrection, so you should keep away from them and break off your friendship with them, and warn others against them if you are not able to call them (to Allaah). Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning): “And those who, when they have committed Faahishah (illegal sexual intercourse) or wronged themselves with evil, remember Allaah and ask forgiveness for their sins; — and none can forgive sins but Allaah — and do not persist in what (wrong) they have done, while they know. 136. For such, the reward is forgiveness from their Lord, and Gardens with rivers flowing underneath (Paradise), wherein they shall abide forever. How excellent is this reward for the doers (who do righteous deeds according to Allaah’s Orders)” [Aal ‘Imraan 3:135-136] Ibn Katheer said: The words “and do not persist in what (wrong) they have done” mean: they repent from their sins and quickly turn to Allaah, and they do not persist in their sin, rather they give it up, and if they do that again they repent to Him. It was narrated that Abu Hurayrah said: I heard the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) say: “A person committed a sin and said: ‘My Lord, I have sinned; forgive me.’ His Lord said: ‘Is My slave acknowledging that he has a Lord Who forgives sins and punishes for them? I have forgiven My slave.’ Then as much time passed as Allaah willed, then he committed a sin and said, ‘My Lord, I have sinned; forgive me.’ His Lord said: ‘Is My slave acknowledging that he has a Lord Who forgives sins and punishes for them? I have forgiven My slave.’ Then as much time passed as Allaah willed, then he committed a sin and said, ‘My Lord, I have sinned; forgive me.’ His Lord said: ‘Is My slave acknowledging that he has a Lord Who forgives sins and punishes for them? I have forgiven My slave,’ – three times…” Narrated by al-Bukhaari, 7507; Muslim, 2758. It was said to al-Hasan al-Basri: Would not any one of us feel ashamed before his Lord to seek forgiveness from his sin then go back to it, then seek forgiveness then go back to it? He said: The Shaytaan would like you to feel that way; never give up seeking forgiveness.

The importance of salaah (frm my discussion)

Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) said : The best friend is the one who makes you REMEMBER Allah when you see him. ♥ True friends will be together in here after too- Friends on that Day will be enemies one to another, except al-Muttaqoon (i.e. those who have Taqwah). (43:67) *Be with those whose love is for the sake of Allah (swt)*♥They will be) in Gardens (of Delight); they will question each other (40) And (ask) of the Sinners: (41) "What led you into Hell-Fire?" (42) They will say: "We were not of those who prayed;" (43)[Surah Muddasir - Ayat: 40-43

My job is to remind not to see the result nor to change someone. So i m here to jus remind and rest is up to u inshaAllah. Allah will guide In the Quran it says, "so remind them (O Muhammad), u r only a one who reminds. u r not a dictator over them." (Al ghashiyah 21-22).

My discussion of today will hold topics such as importance of salaah and what to do in order to follow a righteous life.The reason for my discussion and remind u guys is because its for ur good and its my responsiblity to tell others what good i apply in my life. The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Allah and His angels and the creatures of Heavens and earth, even the ant in its dwelling and the fish in the sea, do send Salat to the one who teaches people (good) beneficial knowledge." (Related by Al-Tirmidhi)
FIrst of all i need to tell u guys importance of namaaz of which u may hav already know but i want to just remind u all . This trick works with me very well .. wen i try to b lazy and neglect the facts of Islam and someone reminds me i jus change for the better. So this is just a reminder of wht u guys already knw yet i m going to tell u mentioning hadith so bear wit me inshaAllah. Abu Huraira (r.a.) reported: I heard the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) saying: "Say, if there is a river at the door of one of you in which he takes a bath five times a day, would any soiling remain on him?" They replied: "No soiling would be left on him." He (pbuh) said: "That is the five (obligatory) salat (prayers). Allah obliterates all sins as a result of performing them".
[Bukhari and Muslim]

The Messenger of Allah (may peace be upon him) said:"Anyone amongst you who sat in a place of worship waiting for the prayer is in prayer and his ablution is not broken, the angels invoke blessing upon him (in these words): O Allah! pardon him. O Allah! have mercy upon him."
[Sahih Muslim Book Number: 004, Number: 1399:]

Perform wudoo correctly dont b in a haste 10 or 15 minz of ur namaaz will not give u an alsaar nor will ub late in anything. Make sure u cover urself all the way if u dnt got long sleeve then u hav to make sure ur arms n skin odont show in anyway nor a piece of hair comes out. nor see thru or pants tht r above ur ankle.Think about how its not evem permissible to go out without ur hijab, or by wearing short sleeve or wearing pants tht shows ur ankle so what makes it permissible to cloth that way during salaah?
My father said, "While we were praying with the Prophet (saw) he heard the noise of some people. After the prayer he said, 'What is the matter?' They replied 'We were hurrying for the prayer.' He said, 'Do not make haste for the prayer, and whenever you come for the prayer, you should come with calmness, and pray whatever you get (with the people) and complete the rest which you have missed."

[Sahih Bukhari Volume: 1, Book Number: 11, Number: 608]

When praying remember it as its ur last breath and in a means of conversating with Allah in terms of any distraction of whispers of shaitaan just remmber u r talkin to Allah and how can u disrespect that? How can u call on to Allah n get distracted by shaitaan? And i promise as soon as u remember that Allah is there in the front hearing u listenin to ur prayer u will not get distracted. Take a minute wen u stand for salaah and just let ur mind b fresh only prepared for the salaah n forgetting the world. Its a communication from u to Allah u can give ten minutes of ur life to not thinking of the worldy things and jus devote urself to Allah for ten minutes. Only look towards the front not to ur right or ur left or ur feet during rukoo nor close ur eyes.

Second those of u who do not understand the surahs and meaning of teh terms used in salaah plz memorise those;memorise it so u knw wht u r saying that way u will b able to pay attention to what u r saying. Ignorance is no excuse! Its very important to gain knowledge of IsLAM its not jus hujur and imaams job the Quran was given to all mankind to understand it. Arabic language was given to learn it if u dnt og tthe oppurtunity atleast try to learn the daily recitation so u knw wht u r sayin. If u red the Quran get the one wit translation. SAAY ur surahs properly do not jus blabber anything and go on. Take pause after u recite each line. Listen to the surahs on utube so u can pronounce it smoothly and nicely as u shud. its our responsibilities to ractify any mistakes isnt it? Our hujur wont give justify on our behalf on judgment day nor our parents. Its u who will take ur actions to ur grave n to the judgment day so isnt it ur responsiblity to gain knwoledge and do wahts right?

Third do not be lazy "Verily, I am Allah. There is no god but I: So serve thou Me (only), and establish regular prayer for My remembrance". {Sura Tá-há, ayah #14}

So, we pray to remember Allah nothing else. Prayers will take ur sins away and prevent u from sinning. Imagine so much things u r afraid about and so much u r sinning that u regret about. U r given five daily prayers and to stay pure. How can u sin on the state of purity and if u keep remembering that U gotta pray how can u b involve in haram activities if five daily prayers can keep u away from it. we can see all the prophets used pray to Allah (swt). SubhanAllah look this is the duwaa of Ibráhím (Abraham {AS}) mentioned in the Quran and even he asked Allah (swt) to make him one who establishes regular prayer! May Allah (swt) make us from those.

"O my Lord! make me one who establishes regular Prayer, and also (raise such) among my offspring, O our Lord!, and accept Thou my Prayer." (Sura Ibráhím, ayah # 40) .

SO whats stopping us from making that duwa for ourselves and our family and friends?Narrated AbuHurayrah (RAA) Rasulullah (SAW) said: Five prayers and from one Friday prayer to (the next) Friday prayer is an expiation (of the sins committed in between their intervals) if major sins are not committed. (Sahih Muslim Book 2, Number 0448)

Prayer is a rememberance of Allah and sahitaan tries to keep u away from it in ur busy schedule because he knws u will find peace in namaaz. Prayer acts as a shield against evil. Allah Almighty says in the Quran:
"...Verily, As-salat (the prayer) prevents from Al-Fahsha (i.e. great sins of every kind, unlawful sexual intercourse etc. ) and al-Munkar (i.e. disbelief, polytheism, and every kind of evil wicked deed etc.)..." (29:45)

Prayer can have a very similar effect. If a person remembers five times a day that he will stand on his prayer-mat and address his Lord, it will prevent him from committing the sins that Shaitan has been encouraging him to do. The lesson to be learned from this is that in Islam, there is no leaving "What belongs to God, for God; and what belongs to Caesar, for Caesar." Everything belongs to God. How can a Muslim who worships Allah Almighty during his five daily prayers, be expected to obey others in other aspects of his daily life. There can be no duality of authority in Islam. Allah is the Creator , and His Alone is the right to legislate and demand loyalty. Man is the slave of Allah and should obey Him Alone.

To intentionally neglect even a single prayer is a serious sin for which there can be no compensation. A Muslim is not to miss a prayer even in the terrifying moments of battle, so how can there be justification for missing his prayers in ordinary circumstances. during battle, the Imam leads same ranks of the contingent in one Rakat of the prayer, while the other soldiers continue to fight. The soldiers then change places, and the Imam leads the second group in prayer, while the first resumes fighting. This continues until everyone had prayed. This particular prayer is called Salat-ul-Khauf (Prayer of Fear) because of its unusual circumstances.
Abu Dhar narrated that Allah's Messenger (pbuh) came out in winter when the leaves were falling. He took hold of a branch (and shook it) and its leaves started falling. Then he said:

"O Abu Dhar!" I said, "Labbaik, O Messenger of Allah!" He said, "Whenever a Muslim prays seeking the Pleasure of Allah, his sins start falling like the leaves of this tree." (Musnad Ahmad)
Allah Almighty says:

"Then, there has succeeded them a posterity who have given up prayers (i.e. made their prayers to be lost, either by not offering them or by not offering them perfectly or by not offering them in their proper fixed times, etc.) and have followed lusts. so they will be thrown in Hell. Except those who repent and believe (in the Oneness of Allah and His Messenger Muhammad {pbuh}) and work righteousness. Such will enter Paradise and they will not be wronged in aught." (19:59, 60)

Preceding this verse, the Quran gives the example of many previous Prophets and their guided followers. This particular verse explains that the people who abandon prayer are those who follow their own selfish desires. A man can either obey Allah, or he can obey his own wishes; and this obedience is equated to worship by the Quran:

Have you (O Muhammad {pbuh}) seen him who has taken as his Ilah (god) his own desire? Would you then be a Wakil (a protecting guide) over him?" (25:43
Allah's Messenger (pbuh) described such people as the sales of Dirhams and Dinars, and things have not change much since his time. Today, the Americans are described by a western author as - 'people who worship the dollar for six days a week, and then they turn to God on the seventh day!"
When a heart is filled with love for money, it has no room for Allah, and prayer is the first thing to be abandoned.

In our everyday lives, we smile and say a warm thank-you to the small acts of kindness which others do for us. so what about thanking Allah, Who in His infinite Mercy has provided for every single one of our needs. Just observe the beauty and perfection of the earth around you, and fall down in gratitude to you Lord.

The change starting to occur in me....

The Prophet said, "Religion is very easy and whoever overburdens himself in his religion will not be able to continue in that way. So you should not be extremists, but try to be near to perfection and receive the good tidings that you will be rewarded; and gain strength by worshiping in the mornings, the nights." (See Fath-ul-Bari, Page 102, Vol 1).

So, many people are misunderstanding that i am trying to be an extremist, taking drastic steps, going too far, making Islam difficult, doing things out of fear now and may change later, or to correct my intention first. To clear out those misunderstandings , i would like to clarify the fact that i am not doing things to satisfy Allah temporarily nor do i keep such intentions to discontinue what i have begun in the near future. INshAllah it is coming from a pure heart and what i have decided will stay for good. My prayer is to stay on the right track and for Allah to give me hidayaa and guide me when i am led astray. With that hope i decided to take steps which may change my life later or for those who are around me.

Yes, it is haraam to listen to music, haram to watch tv, haram to pluq eyebrows, haram to do make up to attract men , forbidden to chat with men, to come in front of guys, to wear tight fitted clothing; it is haram to do anything that will cause fights among your brother\sisters.

Yes, ofcourse no one changes over night and the change should happen by taking one step at a time. Yes, hasty decisions may not last long for near future. But, i am doing this wit the duwaa that inshaAllah i wont change and will only continue what i m doing for the better. I have decided to not pluck my eyebrows anymore, decided to stay away from music and TV as much as possible. I decided to learn about Islam and Hadith more and more in my busy schedule. I decided to wear loose fitted clothing and not do make up to attract men. Now, all these are not gonna happen over night. I just decided to bring that change whereas before i was not even close to thinking about bringing any change whatsoever. So, inshAllah i will change one step a time and slowly but surely. Above all may Allah help me correct my intention before i physically apply everything i have said. so, pray for me everyone.

so, i would like to end my blog with the thought of today:

if you like someone , get married. If you are searching for a groom or a bride, lay out the conditions to your parents of marrying a religious person. But, before all that fix your own faults and flaws and help yourself b religious . The sooner we take those Islamic steps and apply it in our life the better. Because death is unpredictable. Keep your intention straight and rest Allah knows best. Don't let yourself waste time and be involve with what the majority are doing. Because you will be alone in your grave with nothing but your actions and deeds. If you must change , then bring the change today and gradually apply it in your life. Be surely involve with the world but do not forget Allah and your prayer time. May Allah guide u all to the righteousness. Khuda Hafiz FIAmannillah

CALLING YOU OUT FOR SALAAH\NAMAAZ

Calling you out for prayers\salaah
I know many Muslims who do not pray their daily salaah or miss it. InshAllah i am writing this blog with the hope whoever reads it will not miss their salaah and encourage their dear ones and any Muslims to start if they havent yet.

Salat or Namaz is the most important and a complete system of worship in Islam. Literal meaning of salat is DUA. Considering salat as insignificant or taking it lightly (Istekhfaf-e-Salat) is a major sin. Both Quran and Ahadeeth emphasize that the salat must be given top priority in our daily life and must never be taken as a lightly or secondary thing.

We committ countless sins everyday whether it is talking to guys in a flirtatious way , letting them talk to u that way, music\tv, not fully covered up, cursing, gossip and whatnot. But, to human is to err thus, whats the harm if you take the time out to repent each day and ask Allah for forgiveness. And the easiest task is to pray five times a day think of all the sins you committ each day and to cover that up there isn't much good deeds we do. So, why leave the prayer and bring more misfortune and sins in to your account. Do not think i don't pray, i am a sinner. A true Muslim is those who repent for their sins and try everyday to not go back to the sinning path they were before. So, you can always start today with full faith and promise to never miss it.

Remember, Allah loves those who commit mistakes and repent: Prophet Muhammad said: “By Him in Whose Hand is my life, if you were not to commit sin, Allah would sweep you out of existence and He would replace (you by) those people who would commit sin and seek forgiveness from Allah, and He would have pardoned them.” [Sahih Muslim].
Hadeeth Holy Prophet (saw) : If salat is accepted by Allah, all good deeds will be accepted, & if salat is rejected, all good deeds will be rejected. Also, the first thing you will be asked on judgment day is whether you performed your daily salaah. So, imagine you stopping yourself from entering paradise KNOWINGLY.

Prophet (saw) said “Prayer is the pillar of your religion and one who intentionally forsakes his prayer has destroyed his religion. And one who does not guard the times of the prayers, shall be made to enter ‘Wayl’, which is a valley in Hell, as Allah, the Exalted, has said: “So woe to the praying ones, who are unmindful of their prayers.” (Biharul Anwar,Volume 82, Page 202)
The Holy Prophet [s.a.w.w.] said: "Be careful of the prayers, for, on the Day of Resurrection, when Allah the Exalted, will bring the servant (for reckoning), the first thing that He will ask him about will be the prayer. If one brings it completely, he will be
of the people of salvation, otherwise, he will be thrown into Fire." (Bihar-ul-Anwar, vol. 82, p. 202)

There are terrible consequences if one misses salaah.The position of all four madhaahib–Maliki, Shafi’ee, Hanbali, and Hanafi–with no difference of opinion–is that a person who does not pray, ever, is not a Muslim.Think about that. Not a Muslim. Not anyone who has a chance of Paradise.
Hell is so scary people. Hell is so deep that if a stone were to be thrown into it, it would travel for 70 years to reaching at the bottom Hell is infested with venomous snakes and scorpions of the size of donkeys and if they were to bite a person then he or she willsuffer pain for 40 years
Are you scared yet? Allah looks at a person mercifully if they are scared of sinning and carry a repenting heart. Imagine how we cant even stand a humid summer day, we cant stand mosquito bites and if a pinch of blood comes out how it burns? Do you know how worse hell will be? When you pray atleast you can live with the satisfaction that you will be able to have the face to answer on the day of judgment.

Few things you could do when you are lazy is LOUDLY say ALLAH HUAKBAR when you wake up for fajr and iA. it will break your sleep. If you are lazy to do wudoo just close your eyes and picture hell and just run to the bathroom. Fight your sloth , fight the demon that is stopping you. You don't want shaitaan to win by taking you in his line of followers. When you stand up to pray, do not be lazy. Think of how you overcame the laziness to stand up to pray and whats the harm if you pray attentively? When you hear the adhaan, please, pray right away. Because if you don't pray on time , there's punishment for that as well and it will have you slacking to a point, you will miss the time\waqt.

There are punishments you will have to bear in your life if you miss your daily prayer, punishment while you die, there will be punishment in your grave and punishment on judgment day. Who will save you from these punishment? Not our Prophet (SAW), not our mother or friends. Who can save you from hell fire? its you who can just turn your fate around and bring the change for the better hereafter. Ameen.

Heres the end of this blog with the thought of today

Remember that actions are rewarded according to intention. If your alarm clock is not helping, I suggest you use the "buddy system." If you live with family or friends, have someone knock on your door and make sure you're awake. Even if they have to sprinkle some water on your face, have them do that.I have a friend who calls me on fajr time... lately, i stay awake till fajr cuz i m sucha looser.