Nothing changed

Sooooooo it has been a year since i am writing on my blog. I started on January 2011 and nothin much changed in my life within a year and noone really changed around me either.However, i have changed a tiny bit.I have become a hijabi , trying to learn more about Islam , trying to correct myself in many ways and inshaAllah Allah will guide me to do the right always.Other then all that, I am still going to school inshaAllah will be done within a year. After that if Allah wills i will be preparing myself for the teaching test so i can teach high school kids. I dont usually make plans but this is what i have thought for myself as of now. Oh also about marriage , its all unpredictable. Whenever Allah wills but may be i shall be ready within a year inshaAllah. The sooner it is done and over with the better. lol! Well, today's blog wont be any different then my previous blog posts. Only difference is i am going to vent more then give solutions unlike my other posts which is always full of advice, hope , and possibilities.

So, many of you may be wondering what am i doing in Bangladesh afterall? If i have found someone or who do i hang out.. bla bla. Well, i pretty much do the same thing as i did in USA only different is that it's in BD. I go to school four times a week, i spend my time watchin tv or homewrk, internet. I go to my cousinz over the weekends and hang with friends. My life isnt so interesting and i dont complain much. Only sometimes when it gets too monotonous , it can be really annoying.

Anywho, i have seen myself change in many ways over the past years but my thoughts remain the same. I lack patience and sometimes unknowingly lack faith in Allah too. I know this isnt a sign of a true believer but shaitaan has his ways of leading my desires astray. May be this year i will bring the change in my innerself and try to be the person i always wanted to be. Someone strong with lots of patience and a sensible heart that knows how to act wise. In show tremendous amount of patience when someone ticks me off or in terms of dealing with people but very little patience in other deals of life. For example, this girl in my school has been really pissing me off lately. She always has to make comments about me not being able to cover my aura being a hijabi while she is walking around dressed up in i wont mention how. But yeah, my dupatta slightly moves from my chest and suddenly you will see her running from miles away to come tell me about covering myself fully. I don't know why she does it what problem she has with me cuz as far as i know i m realy nice to her.

So, yeah dealing with her needs LOTS of patience which i have though somedays i want to kick her in the butt but my religious thoughts stop me from doing that. So, yeah i have two groups of friends one group is from school and other are my childhood friends who i am very comfortable with. They dont tick me off while the other ones do but i try my best to tag along. Anyways, i have seen so much of this world too and i must say you can be anywhere doing anything and mix with any kind of people as long as you know what your priorities are and know how to handle yourself in situations. So, living in BD is not suffocating since i am learning to handle myself in the environment and people around here.
So, to make this blog short,inshaAllah this year , i will stop having confusion, be more wise in terms of life decisions and stay STRONG at all times whether its dealing with people or my life. I will try to follow how i always wanted to be as a person, strong, religious, and sensible then ever. So, though little has changed in my life inshaAllah lots more to change in a good way.My life did take a new turn but i am still the same person but inshaAllah i live to please Allah first then everyone else along with me. Khuda Hafiz