Assalamu Alaikum to everyone...
This Ramadan is suppose to be a happy journey for everyone as shaitaan is locked away and we get the chance to perform as much good deeds as we can. However, I am not happy... I just feel may be i need more time to fix my mind to get prepared for Ramadan. Because people its HUGE! Do not take Ramadan lightly.
Just like we control our hunger and thirst with the fear of Allah. Likewise, we have to control our tongue not to speak ill of anyone or curse at anyone. We have to control our ears not to hear anything bad/foul. We have to make sure we dont watch anything illicit on T.V. or watch Tv at all. This also means no music! Think it over!! Are we ready for all that?If not we have to ... i mean it aint no joke!
I am living with the terror in my heart that every Year Ramadan passes us by and I promise to improve every year and I am failing highly. There are less good deeds and more bad ones in my account. When I started my hijaab , this was surely not what I have planned on doing. I had the intention to change slowly but surely. I definitely did want to improve myself. However, it seems every year there is only slight change in me in terms of Islamic norms and bigger sins are written in my account.
It just can't go this way right? We have to hurry and pack our bags of good deeds. Our life is a gift from Allah that means anytime anyday He can take it away from us. We dont even know our future, we have no idea about what will happen to us nor do we have any control over our fate ... yet we are roaming around in this world with so much sins in our account without giving it a thought to reform those.
I am just realizing each day that this Ramadan i got so much to improve on but am i really getting started on it? Are you ?
I am just praying hard to control my nafs to fight against the evil shaitaan had left before Ramadan started. I plan to improve on my namaaz and read surahs and Quran and namaz while knowing the meaning. I am going to try not to do any sinful activities while fasting and i think so should you.
It wont be easy but lets pray for ourselves. InshaAllah Allah will listen to our prayers and just hearing the thought that we are all struggling with same issue Allah will make it easy on us all.
Whether you are ready or not atleast little we can do is try to leave out the bad acts of past and move on to better ourselves . We got a full month to do that. InshaAllah we will all try. please if you are reading do make duas for me to reform myself in to a better Muslimah.
With that being said....
HAPPY RAMADAN EVERYONE! EAT WELL, PRAY GOOD, AND STAY HEALTHY!
