Life is too short to be anything but happy.

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.-- Buddha

My life has been a track full of unexpected circumstances. I became friends with people, i never thought i would be friends with. I have been to situations i never thought i would be in. But, that's life. I have grown to learn so much about myself. The fact that i have decided to come to Bangladesh is a reason i chose to write a blog sharing details of my life today. I thought living in Bd would be the worst thing that could ever happen to me. The more i think the worst i feel. Its like little crumbs and pieces are scattered all over the place and i just need to find it and fix it for once. I am talking in riddle i know... but i wish i was a strong person and would learn to make decisions without depending on others.
My friends always ask me why did i come to bd and what on earth am i doing with my life. I just tell them that it is my parents decision and i don't want to live without them. Some of the worst negatives i find about Bd is the education and my career here.

1) If i am here , what will my future be? My career; no colleges would accept my credits from Bd college.
2) lets say, i graduate from Bd and decide to move to America. I wouldn't get a good job and i would have to start my education from where i left of at. Basically, all the years drown the drain.
3) Education wise i am screwed. Now, comes to the life i am leading. Trust me, its not comfortable.
4) I am currently 21 and living the most boring life ever. Not that my life was fun before but the fact i was in America made a huge difference.
5) I left my cousins and friends who i had so much fun with. I had places to go. But, here nowhere to go and have fun and don't have much options to do anything.
6) I am wasting my fun age and wasting a lot of time i could use to make my life better for the future.

The list goes on my friends. However, this takes us to the above title of the blog today, "Life is too short to be anything but happy". So, here i am still happy and smiling everyday. Every time i am restless and my heart fills up with negativity , i pray and heal. Every time my mind asks me, what am i doing with my life? I just tell myself, go with the flow. Every time i get annoyed at my situations, i think this is happening for a good reason. And every time i am upset and think of my memories, i tell myself, "live for the moment, not the memory". So, i try to lead a happy life i thank Allah for everyday. I thank him for giving me a healthy life with my family. I try not to think about the future nor plan anything. Sometimes it is not a good thing but i have been happy this way.

The life i lead is Allah's decision but the circumstances i put myself in to are all because of my actions. I will not get to that because it is a bit personal and will take me forever to put in words to explain. However, i have been too dependent on my family and been too childish. It is time to grow up and learn to take responsibilities of my actions. Time to be wise and not make any silly decisions , time to realize what danger i may drag myself in to. Because every time i am in trouble, my parents and friends wont come for help. I will have to stand up for myself and learn to save myself. I have been dependent for too long , it is time i grow up. Time to use my own advice and lead a life where i make straight decisions and not do anything that would put me in bad situations. I have been less serious about life and too optimistic that i thought everything i do would be alright. Its time i be serious. InshAllah!

So, here's the end of this blog with the thoughts of today"

I am sorry if i bored you with my life story. If you are somewhere confused as me,a sensitive person , someone who is too dependent that you feel everything you do will be okay because you are not thinking about the long run. Please save yourself, bring changes in your decisions before its too late. Be optimistic but don't bring your optimism in serious situations where you feel you may do something wrong but feel positive that you will get away from it.Your character and actions speak for you, don't make silly decisions. May Allah (SWT) help us all lead a peaceful and happy life. Amen!